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hurting myself is my addiction. poss trig

Posted October 10th 2012 at 03:34 AM by escape♥

Tags boyfriend, cutting, eating disorder, self harm, self hatred

Hurting myself is my addicition, like any other one. I’ve never done drugs, or drank alcohol or anything like that, but I still can’t stop hurting myself. If it’s not my eating disorder, then its cutting, depression, or it’s something else entirely. Not giving a shit about life, pushing the people I love away, isolation, whatever, I just can’t stop harming myself in one way or another. It’s been this way as long as I can remember…I literally HATE myself. Yes, hate is a strong word, and I mean almost...

escape♥

Happiness is waiting for you<3

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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I told you to be fine. triggering

Posted August 18th 2012 at 09:59 PM by escape♥

Tags eating disorder, self harm, self hatred, skinny love, struggling, suicide

Come on skinny love, just last the year.

I slipped up. Sliced my thighs open. It was almost 2 months.

Pour a little salt, we were never here.

I'm scared. The thoughts and urges have never been this bad. E is supposed to come over tomorrow to celebrate my birtday, and he said he's going to take and destroy my blade. I don't know what I'll do with out it.

My my my- my my my- my my my.
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer.

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escape♥

Happiness is waiting for you<3

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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I'm not okay. [triggering]

Posted July 24th 2012 at 04:17 PM by escape♥
Updated July 24th 2012 at 04:25 PM by escape♥

Tags depression, eating disorder, fat, low, self harm, self hatred

I don't know how to put into words how I feel. I don't know how to blog about how I'm slowly slipping back into my old ways, into the darkness. I don't know how to tell you that I want to die. I want to never wake up.

I don't know how to tell you that I'm starving again. I don't need food if I'm a fat ass.
I could go into this long rant about my self-hatred and what not,

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escape♥

Happiness is waiting for you<3

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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[Triggering] Nothing Left to Lose

Posted July 20th 2010 at 07:14 AM by Aidanlaiysaon
Updated July 20th 2010 at 06:38 PM by Briana (adding triggering label)

Tags abuse, self harm, self hatred, sorrow, worthlesness

Tear me down and break my soul
take my life, Im spinning out of control.

My knees are weak and scraped to shreds.
My wrists black and blue from being tied to the beds.

My body wretched, sliced by a knife.
Someone please just come and take my life.

My mouth torn open, throat sore and dry.
I want to scream, please just tell me why?

My blood bleeds black, You stole my heart.
Took it and just ripped it all apart....

Aidanlaiysaon

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hurting myself is my addiction. *poss trig*

I told you to be fine. *triggering*

I'm not okay. [triggering]

[Triggering] Nothing Left to Lose

hurting myself is my addiction. poss trig

I told you to be fine. triggering