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Posted April 12th 2011 at 07:44 PM by Anatidaephobia
Can't do this. Can't pretend any longer. Can't be who everyone wants me to me. Can't solve anything. Can't make anything better. Just wreck everything. Your stupid Emma....STUPID! A waste of space, time and effort. You wreck everything and make things worse for everyone.
Feel so low right now. Just me the blade and pills. Everything is so loud so noisy. My head hurts from all the screaming. Yet everything is so quiet. I want this over. I can't take the pain any longer. The feeling of emptiness. I feel so alone. I sometimes wonder if anyone would even notice if i dissapeared. I doubt it. Not like i am important.
The only thing keeping me alive right now is the fact that i am meeting my best friend next week who i havent seen in so long. I miss her. But part of me wants to cancel, i will only do something stupid and wreck things. But i am so scared. There is nothing keeping me alive after that. No reason to live. Nothing. I have so many plans and just don't think i can ignore them any longer. I want this all to end.
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Stay strong baby girl, you can do this. My phone is always on if you ever need me. Stay strong. I love you xxxPosted April 12th 2011 at 07:49 PM by Palmolive
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your not a waste of space, i dont want you to be anything apart from you! i would notice if you disappered. you are important.Posted April 12th 2011 at 07:56 PM by WhisperingSilence
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You are so important to me! It is good you have made plans to see your best friend, which is helping you to hang on. I love you so much <3Posted April 12th 2011 at 08:34 PM by *Jen*
