If only you could see me now,
the thing ou turned me into,
the image i've been.
If only you could see me now,
the scars of our troubles,
the unrelated sin.
If only you could see me now,
my heart in pieces,
I CANT FIX MYSELF

YOUR F**KING CUTS ARE STILL FRESH AFTER MONTHS. GET OUT OF MY BRAIN!

So... Drinking has gotten worse. Had a bad hangover all weekend. I need to stop...But something keeps me in. Just an update I guess but it isn't like people actually read this....

He never knew,
What he was doing.
Slid her down,
Never knowing.
The safeness he provided.
...
He held her close,
And loved her the most,
But his most wasn't good enough.
She couldn't take another him.
The one who left,
The one who caused the cries.
...
He never knew,
She wouldn't tell,
Never let the world knew,
Her secret well,
She drowned in sorrow,
Baked in strife.
...

I wish people cared for me like that.
Say that they were proud, hold me tight.
But no, just darkness;
cold darkness.
I wish people would help me
when I need it the most.
But no, just darkness;
sweet darkness.
I wish that someone would say they loved me,
smile when I smile, hold my hand.
But no, just darkness;
caressing darkness.
Thank you darkness for always being here for me.

How many times do you say that you are going to do something and never do it? I know I do it a lot. There is just so much to be done. Most of these things I have to skip out on are social gatherings, friends events, and other fun things because of work and school related things. I wish that one day i'll be able to look back and smile on everything i've done instead of say, "I worked my whole life and got really successful." Well, to tell the world the truth, I would rather find the person...