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Posted October 15th 2013 at 05:03 PM by DanTheMan :P
Got back from school :/ I decided to make this blog because its a place to basically to whinge and moan about my life without annoying anyone.
No cigarettes today
I can't now, my mum is home. I'm glad to say I'm genuinely not addicted, but just do it occasionally for the release. Its a disgusting habit, I know, but it calms me down. Plus, there are no scars on the outside.
My insecurities are really getting me down. Even half way through a conversation with people that have always been good to me, all that is running through my head is "Am I being too loud? Am I being annoying? Are they looking at my teeth? No one has spoken to me in a while, are they trying to push me out? Are they just talking to me out of sympathy? Are they just putting up with me out of politeness?"
Terabithia replied to my forum post today. Said I should just go and ask said girl out. Its very kind of them to take the time out of their day, but, I don't think so. I wouldn't want to risk a friendship that I have no idea how strong/tenuous it is. And I know for certain she would say no. Thats not a plea for sympathy - the blogs of teenagers that are just begging for attention irritate me - its a pure unadulterated fact.
I'm trying not to cut, but I don't see me lasting the night to be honest.
No cigarettes today
I can't now, my mum is home. I'm glad to say I'm genuinely not addicted, but just do it occasionally for the release. Its a disgusting habit, I know, but it calms me down. Plus, there are no scars on the outside.My insecurities are really getting me down. Even half way through a conversation with people that have always been good to me, all that is running through my head is "Am I being too loud? Am I being annoying? Are they looking at my teeth? No one has spoken to me in a while, are they trying to push me out? Are they just talking to me out of sympathy? Are they just putting up with me out of politeness?"
Terabithia replied to my forum post today. Said I should just go and ask said girl out. Its very kind of them to take the time out of their day, but, I don't think so. I wouldn't want to risk a friendship that I have no idea how strong/tenuous it is. And I know for certain she would say no. Thats not a plea for sympathy - the blogs of teenagers that are just begging for attention irritate me - its a pure unadulterated fact.
I'm trying not to cut, but I don't see me lasting the night to be honest.
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