I almost got in a fight.
With who? Micah Adams.
I waa wearing her ex-boyfriends sweater. That's it. She slammed a desk into me. I didn't do anything. Neither did the teacher.


I don't really want to talk about it. It's just another thing making me realize I'm just a problem.

Man, this whole day..
Just gotta stay heartless.

Today was good.
No tears at all this week. I am mighty proud of myself. Even if I don't know how I am doing it.
Almost cried yesterday, felt the tears in my eyes. But I held it in and went to sleep. I forget why I almost cried anyway. Haha.
I don't what is happening to me. I am changing, it's for the better, but I don't know why I am. Maybe all the advice has finally kicked in. Who knows.
Not going to dwell on the thought.
Today I cleaned my room and...

So...this week. Whoa!
I don't know what to think really. At the beginning of the week, Jose and I broke up. He broke up with me. He had said so many offending things, whom may offend some of you here, so don't take it to the heart. :
"Things never happen the same way twice."-Him
"Rape victims get raped twice. Things happen."-Me
"It's their fault, think about it."-Him.

He said many other things than that. He sent me a whole...

Someone called me wonderful today.
I have fell like dying and cutting all day.
That made me me feel a tiny but vetter. Just enough not to harm myself.

Thank you. <3

Every one I see here and there have so much laughter and smiles in their faces and voices.
Why can't I have it?
I try really hard to be happy.
I'm labeled and known as the "crazy" girl at my school...my whole town. I am known to switch personalities in an istant. I am known to have anger issues. I am known as the smart girl everyone copies off of. I am known as the girl who will give in to anything you ask for. I am known for being gullible and vunarable. I am known...

Jose and I are back together. Just thought I'd say that. I'm starting to miss him more and more.
I'm scared to fall in love.
But I can feel myself doing it. Like if I was with him, I know I would be like, I love this kid.
But he doesn't want to fall for me. I want to be catched.
*sigh*