A lesson I have learnt in my short life so far-

Do not talk about shock sites/videos (such as goatse, 2 girls one cup, meatspin) in public places for there is a high chance somebody you work with will be there too xD

I'm in a better mood than I have been other times. Thank you Jer and Sarah for cheering me up

Also, I think having money and not worrying about finances is helping. I'm getting cable! Now I can watch wrestling, woo woo.

Lastly, can I direct your attention to this thread?

http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/showthread.php?p=81994

Give me a mattress a tv a fan.... it's all I want anymore...

byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye


I still hurt... so fucking much.
I want to dissolve....

Yeah.... was kind of a shock when I realised it. At first I thought I was just missing England for some odd reason (considering I pretty much hated it). Then I realised it wasn't the place... it was the feeling. The fact that I was always happy while I was there is why I miss it so much.

I'm doing everything I can to stop this. I have to concentrate on my own path.