right i really need to let things out so here goes...

got a meetin with head of year and mum i hav to tell mum everythin whast wiv head of year = stressful upsettin

tomoz is study day meanin we work at home and hav meetin with parents and tuor bout school. = talkin bout how im failin in all lessons and the fact that im never happy.

close friend has started SHin and another has got addicted and cant stop= all my fault they only SH because they saw it destressed...

I want to go to heaven a place of harmony.

I am so fed up of living in this hell hole called life.
My head of year is going to have a meetin wiv my mum bout how i am falling behind in lessons and how im not doing work etc he is also going to tell mum bout my SHin and i can't bare to hang round to watch her cry.

My cousin is only nine and is goin to hav to see a theripist after beening bullied and havin some issues.

Everyone i know that has problems...

On monday i have a meeting with the head of year bout my behavior in maths. JOYS OF LIFE.

I bet we will talk bout my home life and SH as well though and its annoying i want to be left alone to ruin my life i deserve to ive been a terribvle person all year and i don't see why people care so much when ive given them nothing but grieve.

I know ur all goin to say that its a good thing people care but i disagree especally as i only like talking to people on this website because...

In physics on monday my physics teacher kept me behind and told me that she could tell that i was unhappy and that was why i misbehaved because i was venting all my pain by being a bit of a rebel and the thing is is that i think she is right and that worries me i thourght i was covering up my emotions well but obviosly not.

I am under a black and want to come out form it but can't its killing me. I DON'T EVEN NOW WHY WHICH JUST GETS ME HATING MYSELF.
Liz

Thanks to all people that left advice on all my posts they have helped.... sort of

i still feel suicidal but tryin to keep advice in mind.

Im dreading school on monday but i am going to tell tutor bout da bullies after strengh u lot have given me.

Im sorry but havent got courage to tell u the thing ive not told enyone just yet.

I am in a big black hole that is to deep to climdb out of thats how i feel.

Thanks again Liz

Im stuck.
im fed up of moaning bout my life but heres one more.

My family can't stop arguing and they always blame me for the arguement starting.

I have been tryin to stop self harming but i can't im doing it every night and i don't really know why.

School isn't going well i can't focuse in lessons i even fell asleep in one.

Study day is coming up and my dads coming im scared dad will go mental when he hears whats been happening and he...

I don't see the point in my life.

My sister keeps on saying she is going to kill herself three of my friends self harm and i think it is because of me.my mum is ill fro stress and no one likes me anymore.

On monday night a girl i knew hung herself and it haunts me!!!!!!

I told some of my mates at school today how this web has helped me. and they just laughed and said i was sad and a idiot.

This sort of thing really gets me down and it made me depressed and annoyed that my own friends would put me down.

i dont want to go to school tommoz. im scared they will gang up on me.

last night i was cutting again on the tummy. i don't know what made me do it but it was really bad now i am in pain and blood got all over bed.

i feel lost and don't see the point in life after 2 years of hell. i can't take this much longer i am slowly falling into a big empty space and i'm pushing away people who care

i dont think i can go on much longer but i'll try to fight through