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My day so far

Posted October 12th 2012 at 05:48 PM by monkey01 (Chantelle's Blog)

well i missed my bus to school this morning cause I slept in and then I had 7 minutes from the time i got up to eat get dressed and stuff to catch my bus. then I fell down the stairs and got a nose bleed. I am just having a shitty day. I found out i have a math test today which i completly forgot about. today has sucked and it is not even noon yet. I am just at my wits end oh yeah and I also forgot my lunch, and homework assignment for math. and I got mad at someone my guidance counsellor and swore...

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trying to be strong

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so much (Possibly triggering)

Posted October 11th 2012 at 04:13 PM by monkey01 (Chantelle's Blog)
Updated October 11th 2012 at 04:39 PM by monkey01 (Adding triggering prefix)

I almost OD last night I wanted to do it so much and i still want to. I have so much going on right now I dont know how to handle it all anymore. killing myself seems like the only way out at the moment. I left history this morning in tears. my guidance counsellor saw me so we rescheduled my appt for today. I might just do it tonite. I just feel so lost so broken hurt worthless and so many other emotions. I just dont know what to do anymore

I am at rock bottom. I need to go cut i...

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trying to be strong

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I QUIT

Posted October 4th 2012 at 03:51 PM by monkey01 (Chantelle's Blog)

I fucking quit I am done. I cant do this anymore. I am so sad. I dont know what to do anymore. I just think it would be best if I quit on everything. I dont know what else to do it seems like the only reasonable answer. I cry myself to sleep every night I dont know what else to do. I am sitting here crying in class. I dont find joy in anything anymore. All my friends know there is something wrong but when they ask me I just ignore them. I dont talk much anymore cause I am scared everytime I try...

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Im ready (Possibly triggering)

Posted October 3rd 2012 at 12:04 PM by monkey01 (Chantelle's Blog)
Updated October 11th 2012 at 06:06 PM by Palmolive (Adding triggering prefix)

I am ready to give up the fight i honestly dont know why or how im still here after last night. I cut so much last night. I was crying and shaking and hyperventilating last night. I hit rock bottom yesterday and i dont nor will i continue on anymore. i cant handle anything anymore. im just done. I cannot do this anymore its either i let myself do it slowly or do it fast and by my own hands. i just feel so alone and so unwanted. i feel dead inside. I AM SO FUCKING DONE.

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trying to be strong

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cant go on

Posted October 2nd 2012 at 04:47 PM by monkey01 (Chantelle's Blog)
Updated October 2nd 2012 at 05:02 PM by monkey01

I cant go on like this anymore. I am happy on the outside but on the inside I am breaking. I cant go on living like this. I cant go on living period. I am so unhappy. I feel like there is no reason to live anymore. I should just end it all tonight then all my pain will be over cause I just cant do this anymore. I did not go to any of my classes yesterday i sat in the bathroom and cried when my friends saw me I gave them the silent treatment. My guidance counsellor found me in the bathroom and she...

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