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Thankyou to everyone for all your support and messages, you are amazing. 
Still in hospital, i'm not sure when i'l be out; hopefully soon! My dad has lent me his laptop for the next couple of days, so if anyone needs anything i'm still here
I hate being in here, it's horrible and scary and no one will tell me what is going on. I just want to leave and if anything happens, it happens: I shouldn't have ODed in the first place :/
I wish they would...
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I finished compulsory education today, i said for years this was going to be one of the happiest days of my life but i'm not that excited.
The leavers assembly made everyone cry as it had pictures of my old form tutor who died on there and us from when we had just started high school, but it was brilliant. We all came out of school at 12 o clock and didn't know what to do,...
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I know he has only moved back in with his parents for support, and i'm being selfish but i miss him already. It is so strange not having him around and i feel so alone.
When i told him i didn't want him living with me anymore i didn't mean it, i was being cruel to be kind i suppose, but i feel so bad. He looked so hurt when i said it and it broke my heart to watch him go; I don't even know if it was the right thing to do anymore!? 
I'm so confused and i hate this feeling of...
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Something my boyfriend said to me earlier; “Anyone can give up, it's such and easy thing to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”
And i know i should listen and that he is right, but yet i am falling apart, i have broken and i don't know what to do anymore.
I ODed again, I failed..AGAIN! I am so weak, i keep stopping myself and i am so confused with my feelings... i know i should get help, but everything is...
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I just want to go and leave all this pain behind.. my boyfriend made it quite clear about what he thinks of my personality sometimes, apparantly i am too nice to people and it makes him feel uncomfortable and inscure. I don't know what he wants out of me anymore, he wants to leave this place, start again and be together...he knows i want to finish education and be a doctor, but apparantly i'm being selfish. It is okay for him to tell me how to live my life and he really lets me know what he thinks...
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I'm starting to think that the only reason things pick up in life is so when things crash back down again, it hurts ten times more....
My mom can't make me leave here, that's not fair of her; she hasn't even looked at the site she just said i'm too young to help anyone... Things just keep getting worse, life hurts too much..i might as well just leave...
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I hate the hospitals, i hate the pain, the shouting, the lying and answering questions...They don't listen to me anyway, i feel so trapped and useless...like i can't move with in my own life...
People always find a way to stop me and i feel patheic for letting that happen. It all hurts too much....
Cut, cut, cut, pills, pills, pills
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