Now let me explain what I mean here:

While I can’t tell you my whole entire life
story in a single piece of writing, I can share
with you some synopsis form of it.

So if you’ve never looked at my profile before
or read any of my earlier blog entries long
before I started writing these inspirational writings,
I was pretty much a complicated mess.

I had people who I once called my best friends,
only to find out...

Here’s what’s so fascinating to me now
that I’ve spent time bettering myself and
continue to work on my mindset every day:

I see so many people holler a cry for help,
complaining about their problems, especially
how they’re always telling a tale of some tragedy
pretty much the entire time, and how they
have no friends and want friends.

Yet, when they come to a place such as
this very website you’re on right now and...

Not too long ago, I met a girl online who
I thought at the time was worth getting to know.
She sounded like she could relate to me,
she sounded like we had a similar way of thinking,
and at the time, I felt like I was “falling in love.”

We texted each other almost every day,
and we even had a few meaningful video chat
conversations and spent hours talking to each other.

I thought she was the one.

After a month...

In a world where technology has become
so advanced and programmed to be in an
instant gratification kind of mentality, we’ve
been so spoiled with that mentality.

When we want an item we can’t find in store,
no problem. Order it on Amazon, and it shows
up within the next day, fast and easy.

You want to order some food but don’t
want to get in your car and drive all the
way to the food place to get it to go, no problem....

You meet somebody for the first time.

This person looks like they could potentially
be your friend, or possibly even your boyfriend/girlfriend.

Conversation goes really good.

You exchange numbers.

You feel excited because now there’s an
opportunity for you to get to know that person,
and it could be the start of something wonderful.

As soon as you get home, you immediately start
texting the other...

They say that it can be scary when you approach
someone for the first time, and you fear what could
possibly happen.

You play the game inside your head whether to
approach the person you see in front of you,
or if you’ll end up wasting your time.

You get so nervous, your heart’s racing,
you’re pacing back and forth inside your head,
and you’re just not sure what to do.

Don’t overthink it.

Have courage...

You thought the person you had in your life
was everything you ever wanted.

You thought the person you had in your life
would never betray you and be there for you.

You thought the person you had in your life
loved you as much as you loved them,
that you were willing to do whatever it takes
to keep the relationship alive and going.

Then, you happen to find out they ghosted you.

They stopped talking to...

...

I'm sure some of you who have answered my HelpLINK ticket once remember that I was thinking of going on a date with this one girl? Well, I realized that it wouldn't work out because of how busy I am. I stopped texting her basically, but it really was accidental that I did. I just was always way too busy to text her back, and eventually she gave up.

I went to her Facebook page today. She already has a girlfriend. She seemed so desperate to get with me, too. I don't know, it seems strange....

So, everyone thinks that me and my friend, M, should date. Neither of us agree and feel our shop is too sibling-like for us to ever work out. However, with all the pressure coming from outside sources, I think he is mad at me. He wasn't really talking to me today after outclass and my friend said she thinks he's mad at me.

I can't lose him as a friend. I just can't. I started crying for a while earlier at the thought. I don't want him mad at me or upset with me or thinking different...