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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
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January 31st 2017, 04:27 PM
It's slightly frustrating that you're always asking me questions that you KNOW I don't know the answer to! You know I don't talk to her, and you know that I'm not going to know what's going on in her life. Every time you ask me it makes me angry. Please just leave me out of it! It's not my business. I don't want to be a part of the drama.
"One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful." ~Sigmund Freud
Re: Screaming thread. -
January 31st 2017, 05:39 PM
Up sick all night, and now have to function. I hate hormones.
I'm going to try this because you asked me to, but I've been at it daily for the last 2 years, I doubt I'll get anywhere in 2 weeks.
"You need to have some successes." No shit. But, people with this NEVER have that unless suicide counts. That's what I'm trying to tell you!!!! Further proof, I tried to do what you told me to, same as the last 2 fucking years, failed and spiraled immediately. I quit.
If I had options or success like you say I do and need I would've had them by now. This isn't a self-fulfilling prophecy because I tried and failed at everything first. I'm only going back to say I told you so because I did try, failed, spiraled, and quit. Maybe they didn't give me any because you're wrong and I really don't have any. They were all quick to offer help and they all gave up.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; February 3rd 2017 at 12:00 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 1st 2017, 12:28 AM
And I'm pretty sure my car will be a write off. There's front end damage and you can't open the doors either plus the wheel is dunk and just ugh. I've had this car for less than a month. Why can't people learn how to drive?! If the light is red, don't go. Like. Seriously. It's not that challenging. If there's cars coming, don't turn right.
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February 1st 2017, 04:40 AM
Social media has gone to crap nowadays. Anything news related is just depressing. I never thought being alone again would be a trigger for my depression and anxiety. Even tho everything is going good for me. I feel a sense of emptiness and urge to die or hurt myself. Nothing seems right still in my mind.
"I'm not a piece of cake for you to just discard
While you walk away with the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night." - "Cake" by Melanie Martinez
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 1st 2017, 02:25 PM
I really hope things start straightening out for you. Maybe for a selfish reason, because I'm tired of your drama and bull crap, but all in all, I guess it would benefit you as well if things were easier.
"One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful." ~Sigmund Freud
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 2nd 2017, 04:54 AM
Going to tell my therapist I'm suicidal and that I think I need to go back to IOP. I swear to God if I admit I'm contemplating methods and I end up back in inpatient I'm DONE. No more recovery. No more trying. Done. I can't fucking go back to inpatient. I can't.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 2nd 2017, 09:01 PM
I can't be bothered. I know it's bad but I just can't. Struggling to keep my eyes open and it's early. Have a headache and feel warm. Felt on and off all day.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 3rd 2017, 03:48 PM
I held on and fought with every ounce of strength I had because I wanted to believe I was capable of more and could eventually have it. But, now that I know I'm not I can go right? If what I'm doing now is as good as it'll ever get, there is no point in torturing myself for the next 60 years. I've been doing what you just asked for the last 2 years, so I guess it's technically not nothing, but I still failed and giving up is the only option I really have.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; February 3rd 2017 at 04:59 PM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 4th 2017, 06:21 PM
Is the point of my treatment to argue labels and amount/areas of impairment vs. Self-fulfilling prophecy, and if not, why did we do it?! Next time, I'm bringing this up and you'll be proving yourself, or I might be looking for someone else.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 5th 2017, 08:29 PM
I'm done. Congrats. You've pushed me to my limit. Some bloody friend you are, enjoy your boyfriends company, lets hope nothing happens to you two cos you'll have nobody to come home and cry to.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 6th 2017, 01:14 AM
Okay, what am I supposed to do? I keep my feelings to myself, you get upset. I tell you my feelings, you get upset. I mean, what the hell, I wasn't even rude or mean or anything; I simply said "I feel frustrated when you do ___." That's a perfectly acceptable way to convey emotions. But you get all hurt and upset and run off. Jeez. I don't know what to do.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 6th 2017, 02:39 AM
If there is something wrong with my throat I'm. Just. Honest to god I want to die. Mental health gets better, physical gets worse. And vice versa. I can't fucking handle being sick in some way or another all the goddamn time.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 6th 2017, 02:48 AM
She keeps getting worse. I don't know what I'll do if she dies. Why can't she just have my heart and my lungs? It's not fair. She's only four.
I'm scared that I'm going to wake up and find out she died overnight or something.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive