Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Coffee.]

The government hiring freeze is really impacting my job search because my field is a lot of federal government work...

[Calaer]

It's slightly frustrating that you're always asking me questions that you KNOW I don't know the answer to! You know I don't talk to her, and you know that I'm not going to know what's going on in her life. Every time you ask me it makes me angry. Please just leave me out of it! It's not my business. I don't want to be a part of the drama.

[Kate*]

Up sick all night, and now have to function. I hate hormones.

I'm going to try this because you asked me to, but I've been at it daily for the last 2 years, I doubt I'll get anywhere in 2 weeks.

"You need to have some successes." No shit. But, people with this NEVER have that unless suicide counts. That's what I'm trying to tell you!!!! Further proof, I tried to do what you told me to, same as the last 2 fucking years, failed and spiraled immediately. I quit.

If I had options or success like you say I do and need I would've had them by now. This isn't a self-fulfilling prophecy because I tried and failed at everything first. I'm only going back to say I told you so because I did try, failed, spiraled, and quit. Maybe they didn't give me any because you're wrong and I really don't have any. They were all quick to offer help and they all gave up.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I can't take it anymore. I'm done. I've been done for a while now. Someone please kill me, please.

When does this pain end? Will it ever end?

[Kintsukuroi.]

And I'm pretty sure my car will be a write off. There's front end damage and you can't open the doors either plus the wheel is dunk and just ugh. I've had this car for less than a month. Why can't people learn how to drive?! If the light is red, don't go. Like. Seriously. It's not that challenging. If there's cars coming, don't turn right.

[daisy_jam]

I've been having headaches for 3 days already and it's becoming worst. I keep fainting and there's black spots in my vision

I'm super anxious about my interview tomorrow

[roseegirl]

I wish everyone would understand how i feel about all these thing

Why do people have to lie why cant they just know that we are going to find out eventually.

[Fanatic]

Social media has gone to crap nowadays. Anything news related is just depressing. I never thought being alone again would be a trigger for my depression and anxiety. Even tho everything is going good for me. I feel a sense of emptiness and urge to die or hurt myself. Nothing seems right still in my mind.

I'm terrible at opening up. Even about the positive things it turns out.

[Everglow.]

Urges are bad today.

[Calaer]

I really hope things start straightening out for you. Maybe for a selfish reason, because I'm tired of your drama and bull crap, but all in all, I guess it would benefit you as well if things were easier.

[.Brittany.]

I'm so tired. All I want to do all day is sleep.

[nothereanymore]

Going to tell my therapist I'm suicidal and that I think I need to go back to IOP. I swear to God if I admit I'm contemplating methods and I end up back in inpatient I'm DONE. No more recovery. No more trying. Done. I can't fucking go back to inpatient. I can't.

I'm struggling with sleep.
I had a really bad dream and now I'm freaked out.

[Calaer]

I'm so frustrated that today isn't Friday already.

I better not be coming down with a cold.

[Celyn]

I can't be bothered. I know it's bad but I just can't. Struggling to keep my eyes open and it's early. Have a headache and feel warm. Felt on and off all day.

[Calaer]

I hate that it's so cold outside. I have things I need to do, but I don't want to do them with it being so darn cold!

[Kate*]

I held on and fought with every ounce of strength I had because I wanted to believe I was capable of more and could eventually have it. But, now that I know I'm not I can go right? If what I'm doing now is as good as it'll ever get, there is no point in torturing myself for the next 60 years. I've been doing what you just asked for the last 2 years, so I guess it's technically not nothing, but I still failed and giving up is the only option I really have.

I am so tired. Not used to being out until after 8 in the evening.

[Everglow.]

Oh this is nice...all three of my friends will have other halves soon and I'll be on my own. Hooray.

[nothereanymore]

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you

I'm feeling so abandoned and I just wish things were different.

My entire life is falling apart. I feel so lost and broken and I don't know what to do.

I don't want to lose her.

I'm a moron.

So tired.

[Clarent]

Am I going to spend my entire life sorrounded only by anger and exhaustion? Is there literally no more happy people anymore? -_-

[Kate*]

Is the point of my treatment to argue labels and amount/areas of impairment vs. Self-fulfilling prophecy, and if not, why did we do it?! Next time, I'm bringing this up and you'll be proving yourself, or I might be looking for someone else.

[Storyteller.]

I don't know why my bad knee is playing up but it's bothering me a lot today.

[Everglow.]

Love the feeling when I want to get through the urges but I also don't. So tired, so alone. This is so hard.

[nothereanymore]

There's something wrong with me. I'm defective.

[Clarent]

help me
please help me

[Calaer]

This is your life, and you're already screwing it up. I truly don't think there is any hope for you.

[MWF]

Im so Goddamn lonely. I feel like that little dancing bastard from Happy Feet.

[Everglow.]

I'm done. Congrats. You've pushed me to my limit. Some bloody friend you are, enjoy your boyfriends company, lets hope nothing happens to you two cos you'll have nobody to come home and cry to.

[Chuuya]

I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut.

I'm so tired of this recovery crap. I want to lay in my bed all day skip class and just let my life go to crap.

Okay, what am I supposed to do? I keep my feelings to myself, you get upset. I tell you my feelings, you get upset. I mean, what the hell, I wasn't even rude or mean or anything; I simply said "I feel frustrated when you do ___." That's a perfectly acceptable way to convey emotions. But you get all hurt and upset and run off. Jeez. I don't know what to do.

[nothereanymore]

If there is something wrong with my throat I'm. Just. Honest to god I want to die. Mental health gets better, physical gets worse. And vice versa. I can't fucking handle being sick in some way or another all the goddamn time.

[Ennui.]

She keeps getting worse. I don't know what I'll do if she dies. Why can't she just have my heart and my lungs? It's not fair. She's only four.

I'm scared that I'm going to wake up and find out she died overnight or something.

I gained weight and binged today.

I want to disappear.