Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Calaer]

I hate that it's been storming and raining! We gave Ava her swing set as an early b-day gift, and she has only got to really play on it for 10 minutes the night we built it because of the weather. I want her to have a field day! Bring back the sun, please!

[Clarent]

I want to be fine again.

Nothing going even remotely fine. Work is just a chore, even more than usual, my family is useless as usual.

And this bloody headache, where did this come from? I need to get new glasses asap, but when? Sigh.

I feel so lonely.

I feel worthless.

[.Brittany.]

I'm so run down and exhausted.. Maybe L is right, maybe I do need to slow down at work..

[Celyn]

Can't believe I wasted yet another day. I just feel irritable and can't focus.

[daisy_jam]

1. I have the weakest, sickest immune system.
2. I hate being sick
3. I have a giant crippling migraine

I have no idea what is wrong with me.
Did some fun stuff today.
I also called about job placement and I am depressed and thinking about suicide. Maybe I should start taking my medicine again.

[Thinking]

(Since this is already labeled with strong language, I will not have any mercy to my post here, as I am at my limits now...)

JUST SHUT UP!!! Dammit!

Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

If you keep on with your nonsense, I promise I will find you one day and bash your head to the wall until you shut your mouth up.

[nothereanymore]

Please do not end our friendship. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I feel like an idiot.

[roseegirl]

I cant believe that you just ended our friendship. You couldnt even tell me why but rather had your girlfriend do it for you

I don't know why I always self destruct. Have to wait till Sunday. Maybe I can push it off till Tuesday.

So tired, and annoyed to learn my appointment isn't even until 11! I could have taken my medicine and gotten a proper night's sleep! Ugh, hate that my medicine makes me sleep more than 10 hours.

[Calaer]

I've not gotten any rest AT ALL lately. I wake up exhausted and my back and legs are always hurting. I feel terrible and I have no idea how to deal with it. Bleh.

You binge-ate! Disgusting pig.

[Clarent]

tired tired tired tired tired tired tired

How am I supposed to excercise and live when I feel like my soul has been drained? -.-

[MWF]

Cant... start... paper...

Stupid dryer. Get your shit together.

[Everglow.]

Wish this dissertation would write itself. Just over a week to go. Still not done.

[MWF]

Oh my God... Im at the point where I almost statistically cannot pass the class. Especially with the grade distribution.
I've never felt so dumb in my entire life.

[nothereanymore]

Why don't you just spit in my face? Also why don't you tell me you don't care about my mental health because I FUCKING told you I didn't want to be alone with him and you did it today and you want to do it for three days? I feel sick. Bitch.

[Moxie.]

No matter how exhausted I am, my mind starts racing the second I'm finally in bed. All I want is one night of decent sleep.

[Chai.]

For once in my life I want someone to see through my pretense and realize I am hurting.

[Clarent]

im lonely .

[nothereanymore]

I don't care that nothing bad happened. I told you I knew nothing would happen. I feel uncomfortable being alone with him. You can't promise me things and then take them back, especially when they're this important.

[FallonRose]

I want to give up on physical therapy. There's only 4 or 5 more appointments left but it's painful and I don't feel any more progress than I've made last month..

[nothereanymore]

"It's an inconvenience to me that you don't want to stay home alone with the man who molested you"

Why do a "but..." always gotta follow a positive thought.

Gonna have to buy new clothes if I lose any more.

[nothereanymore]

Why are you just now telling me this? Also why are you bringing up something entirely different from what we were talking about? Why am I always doing something wrong?

[Kate*]

I'm a horrible person for being glad I don't have to go to the musical now. Someone DIED for God's sake.

I'm expecting backlash, thank God it doesn't show up in Google.

If you're intending to be inspirational and to help people, telling them to message you if they think their life is bad, so you can tell them how much worse yours is/was, isn't the way to go. Granted I don't know what you've been through, but I get the idea that you did something stupid and caused it. Comparing pain has no purpose in healing.

So much for trying to prepare... Trying to be proactive with disability-relate things triggers the shit out of me. This is why I stopped trying people!!!

I know what I'm talking about, no need to come across as arrogant like that. I hate people who act all arrogant like they know everything, though I'm probably guilty of it.

[nothereanymore]

I cry over you way too much.

[roseegirl]

I want someone to see that im scared yet all everyone sees is happy me

[Thinking]

I will fight with you again. I stood up now, and with all the support here, I have hope to defeat you, sadness.

Before you use the cheat button to trap me in a cage with absolute darkness, I am sure I can be strong enough to defeat you. I will prove to you that I can defeat you, sadness!

[Chai.]

I don't like it. It's not fair, honestly but I also don't have the guts to face the truth or confront you about it. I am just going to have to suck it up and pretend what I heard is not the truth even though I am hoping it is the truth. Again, if it does turn out to be the truth I don't know how it will pan out and what will happen of it. I just wish I could talk to you about it but I know I shouldn't.

[Clarent]

Ill get through this with an upper hand, even if I'll have to bleed all my strength out. I'm not staying in this hole anymore.

[Everglow.]

Last time I was at a hospital, nana was less than a week away from dying. Still sort of blame myself for even thinking that what she had might be cancer or might kill her. If I hadn't thought it maybe she'd still be here. Maybe it's my fault. Which is why I'm so scared about fearing the worst all the time for these things but my brain skips to the worst possible outcome and terrifies me.
But I'll go with you if you need me there cos you're my best friend, I'm just genuinely terrified of how a minor thing might turn out.

[nothereanymore]

I want to go lie on the train tracks. I want to die I want to die I want to die. I'm panicking. I hate myself and I don't want to do this anymore. I can't let it go. I'm done. I'm dying.

So sick of the weather being so miserable, it's bringing me down.

[Thinking]

I must be crazy. I am feeling so low again in not even a day... I am crazy...

[Thinking]

Shut up! shut up! shut up! shut up! shut up!
Order!!!!!!! Nothing is right in order!! Everything is screwed.

Fucking shut up!!! I don't want to hear those voices in my head. Shut up!
All of my thoughts must die now! Die Die Die Die Die!!! Leave me alone!