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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 27th 2018, 07:37 PM
It's official: You're going to ruin any chance we try to have at lives, not because I worry about you, but because she will shit keeps actually happening EVERY FUCKING TIME and they resent her for not picking up THEIR slack, even though the favor is never returned. And if something happened she's not only worry the whole time, but she would feel guilty for the rest of her life! I'd say that, but suggesting that she can only go on her dream trip after you die is way too cruel, even if she's thinking it.
I would love to have a therapy appointment at some point, but I'm STILL waiting for the fucking government to do their jobs, so I can't even schedule until that's fixed and then I'll have to wait for it.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; February 28th 2018 at 01:01 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 28th 2018, 06:49 PM
I don't want to go to therapy because I don't want to lie but I can't tell the truth. Maybe I should email her and say I'm feeling sick and just reschedule for next week. I'm so anxious that I feel nauseous. I don't want to tell her I've gained weight and therefore I can't eat anymore or that I panicked about gaining weight and now my ankle is covered in cuts. I want to disappear.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 28th 2018, 11:32 PM
More and more I am thinking about walking away. This is not what I want. This is not what I need. I don't need o continue being walked all over. I am NOT a doormat.
I can't sleep. I see us lying there, together.
I see you holding me, possesively, like a wolf guards it's pups. Like you guard me, and I am yours...
I see this every night. Every day, in some way, you are there and I feel so alone without you... there had to be more to this, I had that dream I heard his voice...
I see us laying there, in skin.
I miss you so much. But I love you more. Please don't leave me here...
Please help me. I don't know why I can't feel happy. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't disappear. I'm sorry I'm so clingy. Please help me when I say I'm hurting.
Hallefuckinglujah if you had done this years ago we wouldn't be dealing with this bullshit. Suck it up and do it already. You have it for a reason and it's time to USE the damn thing!
You've already had it for over 2 MONTHS. Why do we have to send it again?!
Do your FUCKING jobs, it's not that GODDAMN hard!
You are NOT A fucking invalid, but if you want to act that way, then we'll treat you like one and take away your right to make decisions for yourself.
No wonder they expect you to pick up their slack while they get to have lives. YOU VOLUNTEER when you don't have to! Accept what's going on and DEAL WITH IT
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte