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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
I didn't make you mad so I don't have to do anything to placate you. I did nothing wrong. So I don't have to do anything. Maybe if I say that enough times I'll believe it.
I do definitely hate myself for even liking anyone. People are just too difficult that I don't want to be attracted to anyone. Women don't find interest in me at all and my difficult situation makes me not sexually attracted to men, so ever making relations with them are hard, so they are turned off by me. So I do hate being in love with anyone easily.
"I'm not a piece of cake for you to just discard
While you walk away with the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night." - "Cake" by Melanie Martinez
I've been so sick for the most part of a week, and I'm just so ready to get over this. I slept for 16 freaking hours straight because I've been feeling so badly, and now I can't sleep and feel worse than when I originally went to sleep. I just can't catch a break.
"One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful." ~Sigmund Freud
My cover may have just been blown. The one thing I didn't want was for my full or last name to appear in Google with my diagnosis next to it. Shared it in a CLOSED group, and someone put it on their timeline. I'm probably out there now. fucking awesome.
Lets assume for a second that I did bring that on myself. It doesn't mean I deserved all of what I got, and the disability that I have zero control over was still the main cause.
Missed the call from the therapist's office. They can't technically hold me to an appointment I didn't agree to. I'd rather call back tomorrow than try to catch her tomorrow morning. The obvious solution would've just been to tell her I wanted somebody else on Friday.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Well, good job, Jordan. You just blew almost four months SH-free. And for what? Because someone said something triggering and you couldn't deal? You're pathetic.
Regret agreeing to do overtime at a different store. I don't know how to get in, I don't know any of the staff or what they're like or how things work there and I'm scared of it.
i don't want to face them again. they had so much faith in me and i let them down. they'll ask me how this happened and i'll have to tell them i remained a subpar human being despite their efforts to make me less so
I just need a night, one night were I can breathe and have some time for myself. I can't keep doing this, I need some time to recharge. I'm running on fumes and you just don't understand that.
"One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful." ~Sigmund Freud
How... did you not know... that this is an every day thing... I am literally like this every single day. What the fuck made you think I only experienced random sporadic bouts of depression? I have been passively suicidal EVERY SINGLE DAY for almost eleven years. And you're telling me that that's the first you've heard of that?
I hate males. They suck. Fuck my life. You can't trust any single one of them.
"I'm not a piece of cake for you to just discard
While you walk away with the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night." - "Cake" by Melanie Martinez
I kind of feel as though it would be a whole hell of a lot easier to die. Everything is rather unpredictable at this point in time. Freaking out a bit. I guess you could say I am anxious but I am not?
Tomorrow will be a better day. I'll get sleep sometime tonight and I'll wake up refreshed.
I don't know if I should call this pain or discomfort but I don't feel right. My body is all tense and I'm uncomfortable. This better not be withdrawal from Lamictal. Fuck that shit.
The level of disgusting conduct, insensitive, ignorant comments, and insanity is so crazy high it doesn't even phase me anymore. UGH
They aren't even trying to hide the fact that they're RUNNING and she's being SO unbelievably impossible and disrespectful I CAN'T even. You're the only one still trying and we deserve to run too.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
My throat has been awfully sore all day, and now I spilt hot wax all over myself and the room. I'm burnt and very fucking thing is dirty now, the walls, the floor, the sill, the windows, let alone food...
90% of customers today were either rude or were just so clueless that I was wasting so much time trying to baby step them through their order. So frustrating!!! On top of traffic on my way home. Just glad I'm finally home.
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Nothing like having nightmares about being raped, held hostage, in a 130-mph car crash, sent to jail, turned away from a hospital because you don't have any money for a rape kit, having everyone you love tell you they won't help you pay, and trying to kill yourself. And C was in it too.
Wake up. Think of suicide. Go to sleep. Dream of suicide.
I feel trapped. Trapped in a never-ending loneliness in which no one will bring me out of. I miss people who are out of my own reach. I'm tired of this loneliness. I want out. I want to be dead and free from pain.
"I'm not a piece of cake for you to just discard
While you walk away with the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night." - "Cake" by Melanie Martinez