Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

You can do it!

I don't know anymore. I need this day to be over. Terrible day!

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Just be you. That's what my parents and sisters are always telling me to do. And I do that, I am me. But I see my friends and family who are not shy and they are outgoing and I say I am going to be like them in my head, and I try to be like them and my mom says what are you doing, I say trying to be like them or you. She said no, be you and only you because you are an amazing person. But sometimes I wish that I wasn't so shy and quiet. But I don't know how to change. Maybe I am always going to be like this.

[nothereanymore]

I don't care who I leave behind. I just want it to be over.

[Lemon.]

I'm not taking this 'cyst on cervix' thing so well.

[Calaer]

I hate how you treat people. I wish you would wake up and see what you're doing, but I don't suppose you ever will.

I'm so tired of headaches!

[Kate*]

Either I REALLY can't let it go, or the fact that I still want it after all of that means I'm supposed to have it somehow after all.

I don't feel well!

[Starseeker]

Know those days when nothing goes right? Yeah that's the one. I don't want to annoy anyone with complaining so I suppose this is the best place to take it all out.
So...
On Sunday there is this meeting I'm fucking scared of, everybody keeps telling me it's gonna be aight but fuck I don't take any pleasure in meeting people, especially strangers that know each other. I'm only stressed af.
On Monday the schoolyear begins. New school, new classmates, new teachers, everything totally unknown.
I've been feeling so sick today. Like vomiting. I've got a headache. And, above everything, I FUCKING CAN'T STAND ALL THESE EMOTIONS I FUCKING MISS YOU I WANT YOU HERE BUT I WON'T TELL YOU THAT, BECAUSE I'M TOO POSSESSIVE AND YOU'LL FEEL BAD AFTERWARDS FUCK!

[Adele101]

When will you wake up and see what's happened to me?

[Starseeker]

Oh, did i forget to list this horrible pain in my calves because of i can barely walk

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I don't know what to do! Why was I so scared?

[Kate*]

I would LOVE for that to be my next submission, but I don't think it would get published, and if it did, I don't think I could handle the backlash. Part of me doesn't want to care what other people think, but I know I'm still sensitive enough to it that it's not something I can subject myself to.

I was somehow the only person to hear you page me, which you only did once even though I never found you or figured out what you wanted me for, even the manager didn't mention it to me when I finally found him. If you need me for something, you need to either clearly tell me where you are, or you need to come and find me. I'm only in one of 3 places!

I still want my old life back. I went from earning a masters degree to considering applying for disability (which I won't get) and working a part-time job where I don't make a ton, even if I admit to liking it.

I still don't feel well. I don't know what is going on with me!!

I have had a headache for a week straight I am sick of this

[Kate*]

You ruined my life and you don't care, I wouldn't believe you if you told me you did, you're probably just really good at faking it.

Is this as good as it will ever get, really? After everything I've been through and how capable I am, this is really it for me?!

Yes, I know it's wrong that I still don't know where anything is and it's really bad that I got sympathy/complained/ let my negative emotions show to costumers, believe me, I know but we all have bad days and I was doing it completely alone

Yeah, because dealing with her after working 3 days of a holiday weened mostly alone is exactly what I want to do. I can't deal with all of her CONSTANT VICTIMHOOD BULLSHIT as it is. I swear t God I'll end up strangling her. I have limited patience and less mental stamina than most people. I CAN'T FUCKING deal with her too!!!!!!!!!!!

And my cart of clothes that I left in the back had better be there tomorrow or she's going to complain on Monday that there are too many of them, but if I can't find the last one I had, I use an empty one and move on. It's not my fault they randomly disappear!

[Calaer]

I'm just now starting to get more movement with my back only to get sick with something else. I just want a break. :\

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Why are you doing this?

Headache so I don't know if I'll get much reading done or end up going out tonight.

I don't feel well and it's crazy!

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Just breathe!!! You did the right thing. It's okay! You will be ok, it hurts but you will be ok.

[Concinnity]

I should really really stop looking at old pictures of myself. It literally just makes me sad every single time

[Kate*]

I'm going to get soaked, it's pouring rain

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I know that I did the right thing. And you are making me cry!!!

I wish this headache would go away.

[Kate*]

You wanted me to tell you where something was, and I didn't know. No amount of attitude or complaining from you would've changed that. I'm sorry you're frustrated, but it's not my fucking fault or my job to tolerate it.

It has NOTHING to do with "privilege" and EVERYTHING to do with being politically correct! Now, I'm all for being PC within reason, but you're asking WAY too much if you don't want people to tell you to calm down. If you are not capable of discussing issues that are sensitive for you in a calm and adult manner, then you are immature or have an impulse control problem, it's not the other person's job to put up with you if you can't act your age. You exit the situation, end of. This is the attitude I talk about when I say I hate the neurodiversity movement. You don't have a right to demand that people bend over backwards for you, no matter what you're issues are.

[Concinnity]

My parents have been screaming at each other since the moment I woke up this morning. I don't even know what triggered it this time, which honestly makes it worse. It's almost 5 pm now.

I don't even know how or why they keep it going for this long. Why can't they just get a freaking divorce

I hope I can sleep a lot tonight!

I hope I can sleep and I hope we end up having a decent day tomorrow since we havent had much time together.

I'm slowly starting to realize I made a really good choice. I still feel depressed about it and I have a yearning but I know I'm on the right path.

[Kate*]

Why am I still nauseous?! Didn't eat lunch

No, I can't see if we have more of those because A: I don't think we do and B. I DON'T KNOW HOW or where they would be if we did. I'm not being a bad employee, I haven't been taught where the fuck things are!

Right, because doing that is so fucking easy for us that just getting out is your only suggestion. I really have to learn to stop doing this.

New side effect, ear and hearing issues. Awesome I hope they go away like the others did. This sucks, but it explains why I'm less sensitive, can't understand the pages at work, and need customers to repeat themselves.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I feel funny today!

[Markus]

Can my girlfriend's period come already??? It is worrying!

What a crazy day!

[Starseeker]

I don't know how I'm gonna survive it I don't know how I'm gonna survive it I don't know how I'm gonna survive it

Your stupid cat scratch me, because he was being mean to my cat. I hate how I feel.

[Calaer]

I hate the fact that it's so stormy and rainy today. Because we have to go out in town, it isn't the best weather to have to deal with.

[Starseeker]

My heart's pounding and arythmic. I'm trembling constantly. I get waves of heat and cold, I can't sleep, I panic, I wanna run away, I bite my nails off, all my muscles are aching, I've got a headache and swollen eyes from uncontrollable tears I can't stop, isn't this enough to leave me alone

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I'm so tired!!

I hate social security.