Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

I hate me so much

All I want is for there to be a way to recover without having to eat.

I'm don't feel well.

[Kate*]

That wasn't a good response. No, I don't want to support you after that

So, am I going to get paid for the 25 minutes it took for you to punch me out because the time clock didn't recognize my shift?!

Don't attack me when we all know I'm far from the worst offender. If you want to change things, start with the people who have gotten away with far worse.

Inconsiderate much?

I can't stand myself.

I want to fucking die.


At least the services I have available are some of the best in the country. I'll still be jobless by the end of next year.

I am such a negative piece of shit. I have people that can help me and I still get down on myself. I am great at interviewing...a number of different people have told me that. I just feel way less confident now that I am going for a 'Adult' job.

[nothereanymore]

I didn't deserve what you did to me.

I’m looking at pictures from vacation 2017 and vacation 2016. I was so much fatter in 2016 than 2017. If I tell my family about the ED, they’ll make me eat and I’ll look like that again. No thank you.

[Crybaby_JiminsLover_]

Thank god for threads like this.


You say social anxiety is part of growing up and I dont have anything. well you know what mom? I do have a problem I do have a mental health disorder but you just choose to not accept it either You dont accept it or you dont get it. Im sick and tired of you wearing me down.You goddamn bitch.

I am trying to be gone but I think it's only just hitting me that you are gone.

This computer is getting ridiculously slow and I don't have the money to buy a new computer. I'm trying to save it for school.

[Kate*]

Never working a late shift again. It's so dead, I actually took my 15 minute break

I want to cut so badly.
I want to die so badly.
I want to escape so badly.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I am the most disgusting, worthless, and ugliest person on planet earth. No wonder no one wants to be around me. I'll be alone forever until the day I die.

Please don't let me screw this shit up.

[Kate*]

I'm officially sick of and bored at my job. And I hate that I basically have to give up my life for it. I finally get a short shift and I have to stay late and do training crap to make your life easier!

I am so scared I am going to miss out on this opportunity. I am so scared I am going to fail or they are going to look at my transcripts and not want to take a chance on me. My job coach said he can help us come up with a method to use on an interview in regards to anything that might impact the decision. My attendance and W's at school is likely the ONLY big thing that could impact the decision if I am able to nail an interview.

I'm really frustrated and tired of everyone

I don't know what I am anymore.

[nothereanymore]

You would sooner shame me for having consensual + experimental sex as a nineteen- and twenty-year-old than you would shame your son for molesting me. "What guy wants a girl who's slept around?" FYI, every man and woman I've ever slept with wanted me. So. Also, you should probably worry about your own sex life and relationships. You drove 1800 miles with two kids and four animals in a fifteen-year-old car for that dick. Who's disrespectful now? Also, let me be clear: you shamed me for having consensual sex more than you shamed your son for molesting me. Thanks, Mom.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I could disappear and not a single person would care. I'm all alone

[Kate*]

"Life is hard and you have to push through it." Tough love might work for YOUR child, but it DOESN'T work for everyone! You realize tough love with this disability is the worst thing you can do for some right?! You clearly didn't grow up with challenges like ours!

I honestly hate myself.
I don't want to go shopping.
I am struggling with the concept of taking the test. I want the job but I am afraid to get my hopes up because I likely won't get hired the first time around. Also, I am stuck in regards to if I should take the higher paying job if I end up qualifying and getting hired. These are all what if's and I know that and I know I likely won't get either.

One makes more money and has a higher chance to promote as well as a higher salary cap overall.

The other thing is something I could see myself potentially liking but it might end up causing me anxiety if I have to drive people around a whole lot.

I'll have to talk it over with my dad if I end up getting ask to work both. I mean, he won't outright tell me what to do but I think he'll make a suggestion.

I've woken up overly anxious. Now I don't feel like going shopping

I have too.

I got a B- on my history midterm. I’m not a B- student, I’m an A student. My identity is in being an A student. I can’t have a B-

That answers that. With all that being said, quite certain I'm going to leave at the end of this year. I don't belong.

[Starseeker]

I'm so fucking unneeded. Just when I talk myself into thinking that I appear as an interesting person to someone it turns out I'm nobody to them. Nobody to the extent that if empty air replaced me, to them it wouldn't make any difference.

[Aaron,]

Give me a cigarette

I’m losing my fucking mind.

Please let me do well tomorrow

[Kate*]

My schedule for the next week is as follows:
Tomorrow: work and possibly computer training
Wednesday: off
Then work 6 days in a row. I don't think it was intentional, but that's just mean

I am excited about tomorrow but also nervous and worried.

What if I get lost?
What if I don't do well?
What if I don't make it on time?
What if it was a mistake?

Kind of want to curl into a ball. This could be an amazing opportunity and I could blow it.

[Kate*]

Don't want to work or do training crap

[itzz.casper]

Stop looking in my eyes and believing in my lies

You are okay I promise, I know its hard, but we go through this together best friend I pinky swear!

Stop fucking talking about her I get the damn point!

Shut the hell up please Im trying to get out of this shithole you humans call high school!

And voices, please leave me the bloody hell alone!!!

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'll never amount to anything. I'll never have a boyfriend. What guy in their right mind would want to be with a scarred, worthless, disgusting, useless, ugly, fat girl?

[Jordioa18]

Why do you have to go ad hominem and say I'll stay in my room for the rest of my life when I say there's other methods to advance in IT than HBO education, mom? Are MBO graduates that unworthy of getting a job?

The things I overlooked...I am sorry. I should have handled it all better. I should have known what you wanted.

You could have and should have handled it better too. You could have told me what you wanted. We could have talked. Instead, you blamed me and tried to make it out to be about me.

It was all you.

Please don't do the same thing.

Fuck me. Just...fuck me.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Please make everything go away!

[Lionheart]

Shut up! I'm trying to listen and all that noise is driving me mad! Stopp talking or leave the fucking room!