Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Celyn]

This hot weather is giving me a headache

It feels like I'm gonna be trapped indefinitely

[Lunar]

I'm so tired of you. You can take your attitude and shove off.

[Kate*]

I was there for 8 hours and did everything you told me to. It's not my fault if it's destroyed again before you get there. I suppose if I want lists of things to do, then I can't resent when you leave them for me, but I do.

I hate anxiety so fucking much

[Lunar]

I don't want to deal with this shit. Fuck off, mate.

[Kate*]

Thank God I'm off tomorrow and hopefully Tuesday will be my last 8 hour shift because this is killing me.

I don't want to go to work tomorrow. Have to own up to the mistakes I made. Don't want to deal with the outcomes even though I probably won't get fired.

[MWF]

Just got rejected for the first time since high school. Forgot how bad it hurt.
Also forgot that I was so traumatized the last time I was rejected that I hadn't even tried since then. It's been 4 years. No wonder I've never been in a relationship, holy shit...

I either care too much or not enough. Right now I don't care at all. My anxiety is at a weird place this morning and I am just like "Whatever". It's probably best that I am here instead of as anxious as I was last night.

[TraitorBaby]

Another shit day. Awesome.
I'm gonna go blast bmth and play scrabble or some shit. It beats bashing my head against the wall.

So tired, but really don't want to sleep. I find it such a waste of time.

Seven and a half hours later...

I never slept, and had a completely unproductive night.

Now I am getting myself worked up over multiple things. I see my counselor today, she will know something's off.

I hate anxiety but this all taught me a lesson.

My GI is acting up today.

[Kate*]

I'm awake thanks to the grass being cut and the AC being broken (again), so I'm up early and tired with an 8 hour shift to work. At least I can have a big breakfast and coffee. These 8 hour shifts are killing me, this better be the last one.

What is the point of putting my schedule on your calendar if you DON'T LOOK AT IT when you schedule other things? How is this going to work now?!

[Lunar]

I really don't have time for your judgmental attitude. I have enough to deal with.

Tired today. Everything is crazy.

I'm annoyed and don't want to do this today.

[Kate*]

A.C. is broken AGAIN on a holiday

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'm just a worthless human being. I'll never amount to anything. I'm useless and stupid.

I am a terrible person. I let my anger build up and I expressed it in the wrong way. If I could I would apologize for that but I don't know if I should have too. Frustration is normal and when I am manic frustration happens more. I think my mania has only calmed down within the last few months so my stupidity and anger makes sense. It's not excusable though.



I kind of want to cut away the guilt.

[MWF]

I'm so sexually frustrated... every time I think about how far behind I am in terms of experience I want to throw my phone against a wall

I should probably be dead. I feel like I am going to be back stabbed by pretty much everyone. The paranoia is too fucking much.

[Lunar]

I hate how you treat me. You don't have the right to act that way over something that doesn't concern you. I hope you know that.

[Everglow.]

Breathe. Need to keep the anger down. I can't go back to being angry all the time.
Literally sick of my whole stupid life.

I feel inadequate and worthless.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'm invisible and if I disappeared, not a single person would noticed or even care. They would in fact be ecstatic and extremely happy that I was gone.

[Kate*]

Air is fixed and the mouse is dead, but now the toilet is broken AGAIN. How long are you going to wait this time, and can't we just get a new one and keep this from happening.

[MWF]

I'm so bad with girls that my parents think I'm gay. I'm bi, but I never told them... they met my roommate and only relaxed when he mentioned his girlfriend.

[Lunar]

I really don't like the way you treat people. It isn't nice and it's exhausting to deal with.

Feeling off and to binge eat.

Ok, I have no idea what the hell that was, Google. But please don't show me freaky things like that!

I want to see if somnophobia is actually a fucking disorder. That's all I want to know!

I hate myself. I hated today. I feel worthless but I don't know how to speak about it. I hate my mother so fucking much yet I am worried sick that there is something wrong with her.

Feeling inadequate. I know I'm not and I know things will work out eventually.

[Everglow.]

I'm honestly so damn lonely.

I have a bit of a headache so that's absolutely awful. It could be a migraine though.

It's funny how something can tear you up years later.

I hate myself

[Tigereyes]

If the only way I can help others is by taking care of myself and I fail at taking care of myself, why bother trying anymore? I'm just hurting them more by failing at that. I wish I had just killed myself years ago.. Because now I feel stuck. I stayed alive then because others needed me. But if no one needs me, then why am I alive? I certainly don't want to be when there's so much pain. I've lost everything that matters. So why bother. Except that would also hurt others...