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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 13th 2018, 03:40 AM
I guess that's how you keep us stuck? I didn't know to check for that, and even if I did, it's in the fine print! I guess I'll be stuck here a lot longer than I thought.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 13th 2018, 07:03 PM
Okay all I want is to be part of your life. I just want to be with you, but like you don't. You say you love me, but is it love if you just want me to go? Is it love to give me back your matching necklace? To not even approach me? I'm sorry that I hurt you. I just can't handle a relationship rn.
When the world drags you down, roll over and smell the roses.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 15th 2018, 12:33 PM
So horribly sick in so many ways but I just have to push through it because school doesn't stop or care that I'm sick. And people wonder why I pushed through it right before I ended up in the hospital last time.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 15th 2018, 04:01 PM
I've finished the book I'd been reading for the past two or three weeks. It had such a huge emotional influence on me... I was supposed to go ice-skating today with a friend for the first time after summer holidays, but I had to call it off because I just couldn't gather enough strength to get up.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 15th 2018, 08:56 PM
I'd rather be anywhere but work. I'm starting to really hate that place.
And my manager is too cocky and won't listen when I need him to. I'm starting to give up.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 16th 2018, 01:57 AM
8 hours tomorrow, I'm going to get so BORED. No, I didn't "redo" them, but they look better and I put out all the stuff that shouldn't have been pulled in the first place (not by me).
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 16th 2018, 03:20 PM
Number of people who have my books sitting in their inbox: >50
Number of people who have read my books in the FOUR YEARS since I completed the first version: <10
That number does not include my parents, my sister, or anyone I’ve ever dated.
P S fucking A: don’t tell someone you give a shit if you don’t.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 17th 2018, 01:39 PM
Pushing myself too hard just makes me sick, but I don't get enough done if I don't push myself too hard.. They say to just take more, longer breaks, but then I don't have enough time in the day, so I have to sacrifice sleep, which makes everything so much worse.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 17th 2018, 07:58 PM
I'm tired of being treated like shit because you're having a bad day. Fucking don't become a mentor if you can't handle it.
I'm doing the best that I can. This is a lot to learn and take in and I've only been here for three months. They say it takes a goddamn year to fucking learn and I get treated like shit every day.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 19th 2018, 12:35 AM
I really feel like we are supposed to get another cat, I don't know how to explain it, but I feel like we are. But, now that I've pretty much convinced her, despite her saying she would NEVER get another one, I'm not sure. Our last fur baby left us in April after almost 17 years. Are we moving on too fast? Is it disrespectful to him? Is a new one going to make me miss him more? I really want a snuggle buddy, but could I handle saying goodbye again? Why am I afraid something will be wrong with them and they'll leave us too soon? Maybe we shouldn't, but I still really want one.
Why are some people such fucking assholes?! Who are you to question why I was given a job or to judge me for complaining about PEOPLE LIKE YOU treating me like SHIT for things I have ZERO control over.
I don't think it's the med issue or that (which isn't helping), I just really don't feel like work today. And people need to STOP MAKING NOISE!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; September 19th 2018 at 03:34 PM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 19th 2018, 06:32 AM
Why is that request still pending, you've had 2 days to deal with it now. Apparently I have to call their office, explain the situation, and hope for the best.
So DON'T want to do this!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; September 19th 2018 at 02:58 PM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 20th 2018, 01:33 PM
Why did we have to have that story assigned? That was too much for me to handle. Too much on death. Too close to me. Too close. I didn't need a graphic description of that. It's gonna stay in my head, but I've got so much more to do; I don't have time for the grief that's still with me. I can't do this. I want to cry, but I don't have time to get sucked into it and upset. I need to focus. I'm really not okay. I can't talk to anyone about it. I've never felt so alone.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 20th 2018, 07:25 PM
Okay, it was a technical issue, but you'd better take care of this today because I'm still out of the medication and 2 doses away from withdrawal! And it better not happen again!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 21st 2018, 09:27 PM
As long as I work on school stuff AT LEAST 12 hours per day, 7 days a week, and am extremely productive every hour that I work on stuff, I might have a chance at surviving this semester. Oh and I have to keep that pace up for the next month and a half. Kill me please.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 23rd 2018, 07:10 PM
Panicking. I do not want to impulsively send them another message like I did last October. I need Google to cooperate. Panicking, can't breathe, shaking, sweating. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
ETA: Apparently there was a terrorist attack in Iran. Wonder why Google wasn't showing that......