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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Screaming thread. -
November 25th 2020, 09:45 PM
I hope tomorrow never comes. I'm almost at the point where 6 months ago, I said that if life was still that bad, I am allowed to finally kill myself. I've had a solid plan for months. Years? Over 2 years of forcing myself to stay alive for no reason. Yeah well, it only keeps getting worse. Only a few weeks 'til I'm allowed to finally release myself from this hell life. Just a few more weeks, and I doubt anything can change my mind. The only comfort people can offer is saying I can do it/it'll get better. Fucking bullshit. It's been 15 years of worsening hell now. I'm done. Give me 3 concrete reasons it's worth staying alive for, and maybe I'll reconsider. But no one can. All they can do is say "it gets better!" When they don't understand a quarter of what I've been through.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Re: Screaming thread. -
November 28th 2020, 12:30 AM
You didn't fucking fight for us at all, yet look at how you are with her. I'm beginning to think you love her more than you ever loved me, and that is such a hard pill to swallow.
Re: Screaming thread. -
November 30th 2020, 10:49 PM
Now I feel like a fool because obviously you guys have already spoken about this when I wasn't there. I'm the last to know because I'm on the outside.
why can't I ever stop feeling jealous when anyone new comes into things? why can't i just connect with other peoplelike a normal human being?
Re: Screaming thread. -
December 3rd 2020, 11:12 PM
EDITED No one's going to stop me. It's best for everyone if I leave anyway. A few people will be hurt, but they'll be able to survive without me now. I don't want to go, but I just can't handle the pain and lack of support anymore. It's only getting worse. No it won't get better soon. It's actually going to get much worse very soon. Death is the only option. I'm sorry. I have to put myself first now, and sometimes that means suicide.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Last edited by DeletedAccount69; December 3rd 2020 at 11:44 PM.
Reason: Portion of the thread Violate the TOS. Specifically triggering material beyond what is needed for advice.
Re: Screaming thread. -
December 7th 2020, 07:34 AM
Never thought Medicaid would be the good news of the day. If I'm approved, I'm covered, and if I'm denied after open enrollment ends because it takes them FORFUCKINGEVER then I get a special enrollment period and can pay for my own coverage so I don't lose it because people don't do their fucking jobs.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
December 9th 2020, 08:09 AM
Three staff are off including me. Try to tell me we're covid secure now. We have no way to let our customers know because you ignored me request for track and trace. My head is pounding and theres a high chance I'm positive. This is really scary.
Re: Screaming thread. -
December 18th 2020, 09:45 PM
I can't tell what you're thinking, but when you look at me like that it just feels like I am the biggest fucking disappointment you've ever come across.