Idk

[NeuroBeautiful]

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He didn't tie me to a chair
He didn't hold me hostage
He didn't threaten my life
Why then did I care about his approval?

He didn't want me seeing my friend
Her mom would have drove me
But he said
"Family is everything and friends don't matter
Call her up and tell her you cancel"

So often he was uninvolved
So often he called hurting me 'love'
Why do I still care so much about his approval?

I am delusional to him
My depressed brain, clouds my vision
The angle i am looking from
Prompts me to desperately seek help
But he says my reality is distorted
I believed him
I relied on him to tell me
Everything that's been happening
I learned to not trust myself

I only started writing my own story
For so long I relied on him to write it for me
Only later on I started picking up the pieces
But every now and then I fall
And drop the pieces, scattering to the floor
I have to start writing my story over

One jerky movement, the wounds re-open
The threads of my story rip at the seams
I can only vaguely remember
The last time I cried
It was too painful to remember
Because while,
he didn't tie me to a chair
He didn't lock me up in a basement cupboard
He didn't threaten my life
I don't know why I feel obligated to seek his approval
And why I care so much but he does not

[Ennui.]

I really love the style in this one!

[hocus pocus]

Got excited to see another post of yours! I also like the style here; I especially love the second to last stanza, but all of it is awesome.

[.Brittany.]

I totally agree with Cassie, that I was excited to see a couple more posts from you. I really like this one, it's so well done.

I love this poetic monologue. Well done!

[Kintsukuroi.]

I really liked this.