Chemistry - got a test result, 54%, a D I thought that was bad... Aint seen nothing yet!

Physics - did a mock exam and got result, 37.7% i.e. a G!!!! A big fat G! Not sure how to tell my mum... I'm seriously going to be killed...

Textiles - I lost 3 of my pattern pieces... If I don't find them, and they were nowhere to be seen, I can't finish my garment, we're only on the mock, which means I won't be able to make a garment to submit, this means doom! This means...

I fucking hate her
Bitch!
I HATE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want to go to some stupid old persons place where people laugh at me for going
I don't want to be surrounded by people I don't understand
I don't want to suffer the plane journey which scars the shit out of me
I don't want to be bored to death
I DON'T WANT TO SWIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want to miss greeeat matches!

I know it's selfish! I hate...

Breaking Down
Laughing, Crying
Not even happy
Everything is going wrong and I can't help but laugh!
I'm not talking about football.
We're 2-0 down and with 10 men, a previous man suspended... but that's not it. I'm just laughing!
Life's crap... hahahahahahaha
I want to die... hahahahahaha
I'm fucking mental!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ha
O...

Have my first driving lesson today. Panicking!

If you don't hear from me by tonight, assume I'm at the hospital.

Happy Halloween everyone.

Haven't wrote in my blog in a while. Feel bad for it. Like my whole life has come to a pause.
There is so much to write now. So many things, so many people, so many details, just so much stuff to catch up on. *sigh* I do not know what to do with it all.
The boy issues.
The friend issues.
The rumor issues.
The family issues.
The self-esteem issues.
The cutting issues.
The depression issues.
Who...