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There are three scheduled discussions on the topic of coping with moving somewhere new in the Chat Room for users to seek advice and share thoughts and ideas! The first discussion will be held at 8pm UK time (GMT/UTC), the second will be held at 8pm Eastern US time (EST), and the third will be held at 8pm Pacific US time...

All my friends hate me.(The ones in Drama anyway)
You'd think I'd be so upset over this.

But I stood up for someone I belived in. I spoke up for once.

For once I was heard.
I help everyone all he time, and they never notice, I slip up and it's noticed for everything

But...

I don't care.

I'm going to fight.
I'm not giving those stupid fucking people any sasification.

This is my life. ...

Just handed in my resignation to Rob.
I'm coming off staff.
Sad about it but definately needed!
Can't concentrate on my work when here and got a rough time when I go back.
Exams!
When I'm older and stuff I might be able to go back to staff! I hope so!
I'm going to be around here still, but a lot less.
So if any of you guys want my number or my facebook or my twitter feel free to ask!
Love You All!
Xxx

Ok so in September I took leave as a staff member to try and sort myself out, as I could feel myself getting lower and lower.

Well since then...

1. I have fallen out with a girl I was sort of unofficailly seeing, made up, fallen out and made up again.

2. bunked off 7 lessons ( I am in year 12 doing my AS levels) and come up with pathetic reasons why.

3. I have relapsed in self harm

4. my relationship with God has been very...

Sometimes I think I'm recovering, I think I am...
But then I get this nagging feeling, the one that says I'll never recover...
But I will... I have to right?
Feeling a bit down, I mean I'm well exited for xmas and stuff but I've just realized something, something sad but very necessery.
I think life is starting to feel right... I think life is the right option now?
I'm not sure... But this is certainly an improvement...
And I've beem genuinely smiling a bit recently......

Im so tired of trying... I've spent the past 8 years being sexually abused by both of my cousins who are my age... I've spent 6 years dealing with cutting, bruising, and scratching myself... That entire time i was dealing with issues with my mom who mentally abused me and issues with my dad who was never there... Im so tired of trying so hard for nothing... The only one i have is my best friend and even in that she doesnt really understand and tries so hard but i just cant do it anymore. I...

"Tonight we fight,
For the lost all the cold,
Tonight we fight,
for the ones who can-not,
tonight win for the ones you gave shit,
i guess you knew, we were coming for you,
You strike us down, and we get right back up! Pat the dust off ourselves and we're comin for more!!!"

...

It's been a tough couple of years. Gone through a lot of bad times,
good times,
but it's alright.
I have a feeling that this year might be my last in the house with my "family."
Almost got kicked out again yesterday. I'm currently looking for somewhere to live. My parents are probably getting divorced before i turn 18. If they do, i will leave, if not ill wait. But i am leaving. Possibly to Florida I have a great friend there and i have some family there. So,...

Been laying in bed for the past half hour thinking.
I'm absolutely dreading college tomorrow. And today for that matter but tomorrow is worse. Clearly I'm just being pathetic though, as always.
That's me, the useless waste of space who can't even handle a full day at college. Spends the mornings wanting to cry, cut, overdose, lie, jump in front of a car, fake illness, anything to avoid college. Tried talking about it and everyone just assumes it'll be fine once I get there. It's worse....