Well, I guess I have a boyfriend kinda. As you can see I haven't changed my relationship status, even though we have been dating for a week.

My problem is, is that it's a long distance relationship. It's over the Internet and I don't know if it will work out. I don't have a home phone, we got rid of it because of telemarketers, prank callers, and my last boyfriend, who was a crazy stalker. Also I don't have a cellphone.

I also don't believe I'm cut out for long distance...

Why did i let them all move back in with me? >_<

My mom has done nothing but clean and shout at me, my bf just got annoyed at me for telling him he can't walk around the house naked anymore My parents keep arguing about my training and whether i can race anymore.

I was so glad to be out of hospital, but now i wish i was just by myself, so i can just curl up and cry...i want this to end...

It never lasts, the feelings, they always come back and they get worse. There's no way out for me, I always feel worse and worse and worse. When i try and help it they fight back, when I do what feels right, it's wrong. I'm hated and unloved, people don't care about me, I'm just a joke. They avoid me, they don't want to know me, they can't face the facts, I'm a mess. I cut again, I hadn't...