Well, the weather is just fantastic lmao. It's pissing down, we've have thunder and lightning too. Pretty fun . . . but it's still humid so it's not cold. Welcome to Auckland's summer, haha.

My probation officer was finally happy with me today. She says I've calmed down a lot. I think that's probably because I've set some goals and I'm committed to achieving them. I really, really want my license back! I haven't been going to the gym, although I want to, because I don't want to get...

I saw C for the first time today. She's the lady that will be my counsellor until January, and then another woman named J is taking over. It kinda sucks that C will only be there until January, because she seems really nice. The only thing I didn't like was the fact that she used the term "self-mutilation" once. I hate that word.

But as I said, she seemed really nice and she is the type of woman to ask questions. I trust her, I really do, but I don't know how much I'll be...

Okay, lets just get to the point.

Recently I've been thinking about leaving TH.

It's great here, and I'd definitely miss it. Things aren't getting better but I think I'm stronger.

I just feel like I don't fit in here anymore.

I don't know.

I dont want to leave! but I feel like I'm getting in the way if i stay. I really don't want to go, though...