Really bad day.
Think I'm gonna drop out of college.
Tutor's pissed with me.
Been carrying a blade about with me.
My card was rejected twice because Amazon haven't refunded me like they were supposed to so I can't get my train tickets.
I could feel a girl who went to my school staring at me on the bus which just scared the hell out of me.
Everything seemed to go wrong. On impulse I went into Asda and bought stuff I really shouldn't have. Made plans and set...

I thought i was getting better, but then today 1 little bad comment someone made to me i got depressed again. I almost started crying. Every little negative comment gets me either crying or wanting to cry. I don't know what to do.. Anybody have any idea's?

I still haven't had any suicidal thoughts for about 6 days. The thoughts of cutting are getting worse. Just want to see the blood, and feel the pain. Just have blood running down my arm. Just to make the sadness and voices go away....

I had my physical today.

My blood pressure is high. This could be because of my birth control. I'm scared that I'll have to stop taking it. It was working so well on my periods already, I don't want to go back to not using any. =/

They also tested my hearing and it wasn't as good as it should be. I may have a problem hearing with my right ear.

Both of these things mean I have to go back to the doctor in a month. Now I can't help but be worried.

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