Hey.

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So... Today is Friday,
and I'm chillin' like a vilian until eight, and then I'm going to go off and watch a doc. about apocolyptic theries... Which is awesome, because I haven't heard about the show being on in a while!

I'm writing a fiction based on some things in my life right now, which isn't something I've done before!

O.O
I've found out that this cute girl that works at the movies here goes to my school! (Duh,...

Really bad day.
Think I'm gonna drop out of college.
Tutor's pissed with me.
Been carrying a blade about with me.
My card was rejected twice because Amazon haven't refunded me like they were supposed to so I can't get my train tickets.
I could feel a girl who went to my school staring at me on the bus which just scared the hell out of me.
Everything seemed to go wrong. On impulse I went into Asda and bought stuff I really shouldn't have. Made plans and set...

I thought i was getting better, but then today 1 little bad comment someone made to me i got depressed again. I almost started crying. Every little negative comment gets me either crying or wanting to cry. I don't know what to do.. Anybody have any idea's?

I still haven't had any suicidal thoughts for about 6 days. The thoughts of cutting are getting worse. Just want to see the blood, and feel the pain. Just have blood running down my arm. Just to make the sadness and voices go away....