Okay, so I have a lot to catch up on.

Like I've found out that both of my brothers are following in my fathers footsteps.
They're becoming just like him, their both spitting images of him, they're both well on their way to becoming child molesting, addicts.

And I'm sick of being pulled down by them, it seems like every time I start to soar, or just starting to feel better they get into trouble and I get dragged into it. Like I'm guilty by association.
...

YESYESYESYESYESS!!! HOT CHELLE RAE FOLLOWED ME ON TWITTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH(': HEHEHEHE
(so happy[

Well, sort of. You'd think I'd be tired, I'm not. I put down my book around 10:30 or 11ish last night, in keeping with my head on pillow before midnight thing that I have going at the moment.
Midnight came and went, I realised I was too hot so I stripped off. 1am came and went. Then 2am. Then I think I slept for a little bit, before waking up at 3:30am. And basically dozing until I got up. So I didn't get much sleep, at all, but I'm not tired. Which I have to admit is a pleasant change from...

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TeenHelp Newsletter #26 - May 15th 2012 - http://www.teenhelp.org

Welcome to the TeenHelp Newsletter! Our Newsletter contains a lot of useful information about our current work, including updates to our site and services, work with our partners and affiliates, details of upcoming events, short bits...

Firstly, I have some questions:
1. How do you change the font etc. of your blog without having to use the BBcodes every time? Is there a control panel somewhere? Where?
2. Images in blogs? How do you put them there?
3. How do I change the name of my blog/blog cover picture/etc? Normally I'm ok with website stuff but this is vaguely mystifying me.
So if you know the answers to any of those, could you please tell me? Thanks.

Good news! Turns out the court...

Curled up in bed, feel sick and crying. Eight exams to go in the next nine days, I've revised but still know nothing...
I'm going to fail, ruin everything... So stressed, can't cope. Self destruction >_<

Got an exam later and another tomorrow
Today's can fail. French. Who cares.
Tomorrow R.S. Want to do it at A-Level.
Could do with an A.
On track for a C.
Can't concentrate. Can't revise.
Destined to fail.
i hate failing. but i am a failure.

I can't trust anyone. No one really cares. It's all lies...

You told me that you would be there for me every step of the way. Where are you now? You suddenly don't give a damn. I need you to care. Should have never trusted you.

Well, my lawyer txted me this morning. Told me to go to the police station with either a parent or my keyworker to uplift the summons, give them only the information that I legally have to give - that is, name, address, and date of birth - refuse interviews and questions, and fax him the summons afterwards. I'm pretty sure I faxed him the summons already, maybe they'll give me something different at the police station? I don't know.

I'm apprehensive about this because I don't know...

It's actually a genuine issue for me. I generally come across as positive and optimistic. I mean, not that that's a bad thing, but it does make it very difficult to communicate depression, or to even admit to depression.

I'm not depressed yet - I can feel it, waiting around the corner, slinking in the shadows, biding its time, until I am weak and it can get me all at once. I know it's going to happen. It's half-past May and nearly June. I know when to expect it.

I just...