For years now I've known I was different. I have always felt there was just something that was weird about me. I thought I had figured it out about two years almost three years ago, I was 12 and I had the biggest crush on this girl and so I told myself I was a lesbian and for about a year I went with it and I felt almost whole for once. Soon the same feelings came back though and I had that gaping hole in me again. I didn't know what to do so I just went on living and telling myself it would get...

At the moment, I'm annoyed at both myself, and a few other people. I'm sorry that I rant so much, but it honestly helps, since I'm too much of a damn coward to actually face the people I'm annoyed at . I don't want conflict and I don't want to be misunderstood, so it's best to forget after ranting.

Like, I'm annoyed at myself because there are people that I can't say no to. I don't know how to say no and then I do things and then sometimes I don't like what I've done and sometimes...

I love the Black Veil Brides.
They have inspired me to embrace who I am, being different and being proud of it, and their lyrics have been my strength and my backbone through so much in my life.

So, I wanted to know; What is your go-to band, and why?

Sometimes I feel so much freer. It's only been a few days but my mood has lifted incredibly, I've been spending more time with my friends, I've been reading more, I've had a couple of ideas for stories that I want to write, I've been enjoying my classes more... It can't just be a coincidence....

But other times I feel so guilty. It's my fault everything went wrong. I should still be with him. I should be changing myself, trying to fix things, trying to make him happy.
...

well i just cant handle anything anymore my life is crashing down im a wreck i just want to die.

Her blood trickles down in liquid harmony
Lost in all the agony,
With a broken heart, she could never be happy
But she knew it was her fate
A lonely road to her escape

The bright new silver shined in the moon's light
She learned to try, to try to live
But she didn't stand a chance
As for her love, he'd have to forgive

She took one last breath, and gasped at her final release
As her pain bled out, her inner wounds...

Thinking back on some things, I've realized that I'm pretty stupid. But not in a mean way, more in a "that-was-really-dumb!" way.

Like, I've once thought that Elton John and John Lennon were the same person.

I've also thought that Oli from Bring Me The Horizon was Andy Sixx from Black Veil Bride were the same person.

When on the train from Ottawa to Toronto I thought Lake Ontario was the ocean.

I once questioned why flies die...

I guess you could say I'm one of "them," the "popular girls"...

Everyone says that being popular is the best thing ever, but it isn't. Here's some examples:

1.) If I was to wear a cute v-neck shirt from Victoria's Secret, I'm suddenly a slut.

2.) My best friend and me get in a fight, I'm suddenly a bitch.

3.) Someone won't leave me alone and I tell them to, I'm suddenly a jerk.

People say that if you're popular,...

It's cold. So cold. Apparently 13 degrees outside, but feels colder - like about 6 or 7.

I can feel my mind letting go. I don't have to live for gym any more; I don't have to live for my cat anymore.

Everything stops when I stop, you see. Once I'm dead, the reality is, all consciousness will cease, and so will all knowledge of the living world. There is no afterlife, from dust we came, to dust we shall return.

Tonight is the night.

I'm...