I literally cannot stop myself. Every day. Even on Christmas Eve, when I should be happy.
And I'm not sure if I'm developing an ED or not. Because I'm so self concious about my mouth, I never eat in public, skip breakfast whenever I can, and eat less in between meals, so I basically only now only eat dinner. Even then its because my mum is on the room. Every time I look in the mirror I'm filled with self loathing.
So not only am I trying not to self harm half an hour before christmas...

...

Didn't really drink much, plus food, so sobered up pretty fast, but already too triggered
Aaaaahhhhh well

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I can feel the numbness alcohol brings coursing through my body already. I haven't eaten all day, which only intensifies the effect. Its the closest thing to a sensory deprivation "drug" I have, so I appreciate the existence,seeing as I've never tried any form of illegal recreational drug, but the only problem is it makes self harm a lot easier, and lowers inhibitions.

So! I figured some people (if any) want to see my social life so, http://yeoldehxckoala.tumblr.com/

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I must say that ever since I came back from Thanksgiving vacation to school, things have started to really shape up. I started reaching out to others that I wasn't really friends with before, and now, those people are my good friends now. Another thing that happened was one of my friends that I met in my choral class last year and was really good friends with actually texted me one night and actually apologized for treating me like crap since the school year began. She felt really bad and actually...

I had quite a good day today, went out ( :O ).
The weird thing is, the better day I have, the more down I feel at night. So if I have a really good or bad day, I end up cutting at night, but not on a mediocre day.
Meh, what can you do?

Whereas before I could go maybe 2 weeks' now it's almost every night
Never use twitter, don't have an account, bit l but I came across this account @welltbh that is literally me, besides gender.