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Posted February 1st 2012 at 11:34 PM by George^^
Okay, this title doesn't make sense. Whoop-de-friggin-do. Okay, so it actually means I have this blog about a bunch of things with mixed emotions on them.
Today I had a talk with the student teacher rep person, or whatever the fuck she is. I think it's more the "I'll tell all the important people when something important is happening" person.... Or maybe that's just the way it is right now. My school is a stupid place. It's shaped like a swatsicka. We can't have a LGBT and Straight alliance because apperantly that would be stirring the pot! It's fucking 2012, but the school seems to be stuck in the past. We do work that is Pre-Nunavut (Before we got to be our own territory!)
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I almost came out, but I didn't. I couldn't. I freaked. I did some bullshit on being a Comic Nerd. I was afraid because I'm alone. I'm even alone with my friends. Someone is my friend, but all they ever have time for are short facebook chats, or just a little bit of time when her friend is in the bathroom trying to coax a crying classmate out.
The problem with that? Closest friend. Yea. I'm a loser. I mean, they try to hang out, but... Their busy. I didn't bother asking them to my birthday because I knew they wouldn't be able to make it. The last two times we had something planned, nothing. The first time was planned weeks in advance, and then they didn't even show up. They didn't say anything about it. And then last time they said 'sorry can't come, my dad wants me to stay in tonight'...
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My mom fought with me the last two mornings. Apperantly suicide is just weakness because no one fights to stay alive. And, OUCH, that hurts. I'm been suicidal. So, big slap to the face!
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I got more meds! FUCK YEA! While the rest of you have to take school gym, I don't. I get fucking hives. From my gym class. It got so bad that I had to get out of it.... I have to take medication every morning when I'm going out walking or to school so I don't end up not being able to pay attention by going "OMFG, I'm ichy!"
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I found out this cute girl that works at the movie's goes to my school! YAY. O.o I go to the only high school in town, so I'm weird to think she wouldn't. I just thought she was in like, grade eight, and in the french school or something, I guess. But I saw her two times and in my mind it was like "OMFG! the cute girl from the movies, wait till A sees this!" -A is my friend who shares my kind of, omg, cute! idea.
The cute girl in my class gave me gum. it's like, yumm! Okay, I'm creepy. But hey, I enjoy her, she's nice to sit beside. Even if she talks alot. She's nice. I don't mind it more than N, who is like, annoying!
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To sleep on the floor or in the bed?
Okay, In TO, I will be staying at my crushes house. Just found that out, and of course, I'll probably be sleeping in her bed, which is okay, I've slept in the same room with her before, but not like, when I realized I have more than friend attraction! I'm going to enjoy being around my friend, but... That's close. I wonder what will happen!
<3
G.
Today I had a talk with the student teacher rep person, or whatever the fuck she is. I think it's more the "I'll tell all the important people when something important is happening" person.... Or maybe that's just the way it is right now. My school is a stupid place. It's shaped like a swatsicka. We can't have a LGBT and Straight alliance because apperantly that would be stirring the pot! It's fucking 2012, but the school seems to be stuck in the past. We do work that is Pre-Nunavut (Before we got to be our own territory!)
----
I almost came out, but I didn't. I couldn't. I freaked. I did some bullshit on being a Comic Nerd. I was afraid because I'm alone. I'm even alone with my friends. Someone is my friend, but all they ever have time for are short facebook chats, or just a little bit of time when her friend is in the bathroom trying to coax a crying classmate out.
The problem with that? Closest friend. Yea. I'm a loser. I mean, they try to hang out, but... Their busy. I didn't bother asking them to my birthday because I knew they wouldn't be able to make it. The last two times we had something planned, nothing. The first time was planned weeks in advance, and then they didn't even show up. They didn't say anything about it. And then last time they said 'sorry can't come, my dad wants me to stay in tonight'...
----
My mom fought with me the last two mornings. Apperantly suicide is just weakness because no one fights to stay alive. And, OUCH, that hurts. I'm been suicidal. So, big slap to the face!
----
I got more meds! FUCK YEA! While the rest of you have to take school gym, I don't. I get fucking hives. From my gym class. It got so bad that I had to get out of it.... I have to take medication every morning when I'm going out walking or to school so I don't end up not being able to pay attention by going "OMFG, I'm ichy!"
----
I found out this cute girl that works at the movie's goes to my school! YAY. O.o I go to the only high school in town, so I'm weird to think she wouldn't. I just thought she was in like, grade eight, and in the french school or something, I guess. But I saw her two times and in my mind it was like "OMFG! the cute girl from the movies, wait till A sees this!" -A is my friend who shares my kind of, omg, cute! idea.
The cute girl in my class gave me gum. it's like, yumm! Okay, I'm creepy. But hey, I enjoy her, she's nice to sit beside. Even if she talks alot. She's nice. I don't mind it more than N, who is like, annoying!
----
To sleep on the floor or in the bed?
Okay, In TO, I will be staying at my crushes house. Just found that out, and of course, I'll probably be sleeping in her bed, which is okay, I've slept in the same room with her before, but not like, when I realized I have more than friend attraction! I'm going to enjoy being around my friend, but... That's close. I wonder what will happen!
<3
G.
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