Have no idea what I'm doing or thinking. I'm trying so, so hard to be good. Haven't cut since Sunday, been eating at least 1 1/2 to 2 meals a day. I was more open with the doctor than I wanted to be. But it feels like the more I try, the lower my mood gets.
I thought eating more and cutting less and trying to fix everything would make me happy. But in reality it's making me more and more miserable and I can't really understand why. I really just want to shut myself away and hide from everyone.
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