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Bleh. Bored.
Posted November 23rd 2011 at 08:15 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:24 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:24 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
I remembered something randomly at college today and it's been bothering me all day.
Before we started high school, my cousin told me I wasn't allowed to tell anyone at the new school we were cousins. When I asked her why she just shrugged and said "I don't want them to know I'm related to someone so weird."
I've never been good at talking to people or making the first move. 9 times out of 10 I make friends with the wrong people and end up getting myself hurt. At this point I've learned to just shut up, sit in the corner, and get on with life myself. At least that way I won't get close to anyone I don't know and end up with another liar, another fake, another attention seeker, another bitch. At this rate I'll end up with no one at all going by how often I see my old friends. E is staying with me on Saturday, it'll be the first time I've seen her since her birthday in September. I don't even remember the last time I saw G or Z or L. I miss them. I miss being in a group and feeling like I was part of something. There weren't individual little cliques or anything in it, we were all one big group who were really close. It was the best two years of my life. And I miss it.
I miss everything about school. Being able to go to the library and know I'd be let in anytime because I just sat there quietly. I miss not having to worry that one friend wasn't in school or had a meeting or something because there were 10 or 11 of us most days, boys and girls. It was so amazing and I miss it more than anything else about my past right now.
At least E spending the night will be fun. Dad's out so mum says we might just order in for dinner depending on what we feel like. And since it's a Doctor Who Marathon we're doing, I won't have to talk too much either. Bleh.
Rant.
Bored.
I need a paintbrush and some glitter stat.
Before we started high school, my cousin told me I wasn't allowed to tell anyone at the new school we were cousins. When I asked her why she just shrugged and said "I don't want them to know I'm related to someone so weird."
I've never been good at talking to people or making the first move. 9 times out of 10 I make friends with the wrong people and end up getting myself hurt. At this point I've learned to just shut up, sit in the corner, and get on with life myself. At least that way I won't get close to anyone I don't know and end up with another liar, another fake, another attention seeker, another bitch. At this rate I'll end up with no one at all going by how often I see my old friends. E is staying with me on Saturday, it'll be the first time I've seen her since her birthday in September. I don't even remember the last time I saw G or Z or L. I miss them. I miss being in a group and feeling like I was part of something. There weren't individual little cliques or anything in it, we were all one big group who were really close. It was the best two years of my life. And I miss it.
I miss everything about school. Being able to go to the library and know I'd be let in anytime because I just sat there quietly. I miss not having to worry that one friend wasn't in school or had a meeting or something because there were 10 or 11 of us most days, boys and girls. It was so amazing and I miss it more than anything else about my past right now.
At least E spending the night will be fun. Dad's out so mum says we might just order in for dinner depending on what we feel like. And since it's a Doctor Who Marathon we're doing, I won't have to talk too much either. Bleh.
Rant.
Bored.
I need a paintbrush and some glitter stat.
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I would love to be related to someone as delightfully weird as you.
Posted November 24th 2011 at 01:31 AM by Storyteller.
