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Posted December 13th 2011 at 06:42 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:21 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:21 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Been laying in bed for the past half hour thinking.
I'm absolutely dreading college tomorrow. And today for that matter but tomorrow is worse. Clearly I'm just being pathetic though, as always.
That's me, the useless waste of space who can't even handle a full day at college. Spends the mornings wanting to cry, cut, overdose, lie, jump in front of a car, fake illness, anything to avoid college. Tried talking about it and everyone just assumes it'll be fine once I get there. It's worse. Because in that building I'm completely alone with not a single friend and no one to talk to. The stupid freak in the corner who's too scared to talk to anyone.
But no, that's fine. No reason to miss class for that. I'll do what everyone obviously wants and stop taking anything, smile, and enjoy life like I should be. Because there's clearly absolutely nothing wrong with me anyway and I just make shit up for attention. Of course.
Something wrong? Well don't bother me, go see the doctor?
How are you feeling lately? Bad? Try speaking to friends and family.
Everyone is intent on sending me elsewhere.
It'd be nice for someone to just listen and not tell me how much worse others have it and that it'll be fine eventually. Just listen to me for once and not send me off somewhere else.
That'd be really nice.
I'm absolutely dreading college tomorrow. And today for that matter but tomorrow is worse. Clearly I'm just being pathetic though, as always.
That's me, the useless waste of space who can't even handle a full day at college. Spends the mornings wanting to cry, cut, overdose, lie, jump in front of a car, fake illness, anything to avoid college. Tried talking about it and everyone just assumes it'll be fine once I get there. It's worse. Because in that building I'm completely alone with not a single friend and no one to talk to. The stupid freak in the corner who's too scared to talk to anyone.
But no, that's fine. No reason to miss class for that. I'll do what everyone obviously wants and stop taking anything, smile, and enjoy life like I should be. Because there's clearly absolutely nothing wrong with me anyway and I just make shit up for attention. Of course.
Something wrong? Well don't bother me, go see the doctor?
How are you feeling lately? Bad? Try speaking to friends and family.
Everyone is intent on sending me elsewhere.
It'd be nice for someone to just listen and not tell me how much worse others have it and that it'll be fine eventually. Just listen to me for once and not send me off somewhere else.
That'd be really nice.
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You don't have to pretend things are okay when they're not. <3
You're not a waste of space, nor a freak (unless you mean it in the cool sense
), and I know it sucks that you're having these thoughts and feelings, but that doesn't mean you need to let them ruin your life.
I'm always here to listen. I care about you a lot, and I want for you to be able to post a genuinely happy blog entry, not feeling like you have to fake it because you think that's what people want.
I want you to be really happy, and if there's ever anything I can do to help that, just let me know, okay?
Posted December 13th 2011 at 08:45 AM by Storyteller.
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Don't pretend lovely. I know we don't talk much but I am honestly here if you ever just need a chat or a rant. I won't judge you or anything. I don't want to you feel this way and feel so alone. You're not alone. <3Posted December 13th 2011 at 05:15 PM by Palmolive
