Emm .... not 2 sure what i should write.. 2day i guess im happy. At my dad's although i have no friends here and it brings back horrible memories here of mum and dad getting a divorce the first time i cut... When my so-called best friends threatens to beat me up and when my Ex told the whole School i was an emo.

But im Happy now i guess i live with my mum and her boyfriend ( who i cnat stand but am trying)
I moved School and am happy even though nobody there know's that i used...

I can't take it.
Just stop it now.
The constant questions..
"Why do you have a bruise on your knuckle?"
"Where did that scar come from?"
"Why do you cut?"
"What makes you happy?"
"Who makes you happy?"

Just stop. Everone just stop. I want to you to care..but it doesn't really matter.. It's not like I'll ever be happy.

Do I even remember being truly happy?
Yes....

I'm late.
I was already supposed to be there.
He's there.
He probably think I stood him him up.
He won't wait. He'll leave and never talk to me again.


I'm so worried
For a while now I have been talking to this guy named Alex. He's amazing and be thinks I'm amazing too.
I was going to meet him for the first time today, a double date with him and me and my friend Micah and her boyfriend.
But Micah's running late. And I'll...

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>_< I don't want to be here right now, I need to get the hell out.... hurting so badly but no one listens, they don't care :/

I've been talking to this girl recently...
Like me, she cuts...
We met on the internet ages ago and have been talking everyday for months and months.
I thought she was like me... I thought she cut as a way to survive...
She hadn't cut for 4 weeks because of a swimming thing... She's been caught so she couldn't or they'd know...
Well I asked her how long it's been and she said 4 weeks but I'm going to cut after my last swim...
I told her why doesn't she keep...

I'm ripped to shreds...
I don't even regret it...
At least I feel good now...
I'm just addicted to this pain...
At least I know it makes me happy...
And I guess that's my reason to not stop...
Sorry to disappoint... Turns out I'm weaker than I thought...

Bryan. Bryan Erik Rumbo + Hope. Hope ShyAnne Denney = LOVE

At least it did. Supposedly. I don't even know if we were ever in love.

I'm screwed up.,

But I wont go back to him

He liked only the chase.

Screw him. Im done with excuses.

Im moving on.

So I'm moving in with my dad and my brother.
I'm fucked. :|