"Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead."

I don't have voices in my head. I often get asked if I do . . . I don't. I have ideas, and plans, and urges . . . but they all come from me. Not some "other" thing. Just me. Which I suppose makes me somewhat sicker . . . I don't know.

I tore apart a razor because my old blades are blunt. I tore. Apart. A razor.
Ladies, (gents?) I am not well. I do not know what to do.
Everyday...

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS DOWN, I MEAN DAMN!
Oh TH I simply adore you!
So lately, ugh, I don't even want to bring it up, but I will.
So I mentioned in one of my threads that I lashed out at a website and that they got offeneded, etc. I went and apologized but they began to taunt me and such so I decided to not only leave the site, but leave the fandom entirely. It's my favorite book and it sickens me to leave the fandom but they just ruined it for me. I felt so dreadful throughout...

Keri came over this morning. Didn't ask anything about the hoodie. Said I was clearly shattered. Offered to come over again later. I declined.

Last night, I'd just fallen asleep, and there was really loud knocking on the door. I didn't want to get it, but it kept going on for ages, so I went to my window at roughly the same time as my flatmate answered the door. It was the police. It was 2am. I was like, whafuck? And my flatmate felt the same. Turns out the guy that used to live here...

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Renewing this thing once more. I actually plan on writing in this more 'cause I feel down when I see no notes on my Tumblr and because I now have greater access to this site (though, due to recent unforseen events, I fear that privilage is going to go away (let's cross our fingers and hope to god not (even though, knowing god, he'll do it anyways (even though I don't even believe god exsists so (I'll tell you what, god, if you exsist, don't let anything happen with the entire other forum and the...

It is hot. It is humid. It is summer.
My washing is in the machine.
I got new shorts and a singlet.
I didn't buy much as far as groceries go because I haven't been hungry, and to be honest, what's the point of buying food if you're not going to eat it?

My sleep is all over the place. Some nights I sleep in excess of 10 or 12 hours. Some nights (like last night) it feels like I don't sleep at all. The weather doesn't help. Taking my meds sometimes helps, but I've...

I don't like posting things about my own sadness because I'm here to help other people.
But.

I just need to rant a bit.

So. After my ex left me and put me through an extensive amount of pain, I was finally happy. Single, and happy all by myself.
I was happy with myself and I was content with everything. I thought I had healed from the pain my ex put me through and I thought I had moved on.
And I was DEPRESSION FREE for the FIRST time in 5 years. Ugh....

What's the point..I reach out to people, I ask for help and I get nothing... If i'm lucky someone talks to me and just has a go at me over trivial little things. Sometimes I wonder why i bother
Maybe i'm meant to be alone, maybe this is how things are supposed to be, maybe i'll get used to it.
I should just stop trying, things are easier that way.

From today until after New Year's, I am going to be so busy. My best friend came home from college for Christmas (she went out of state very far away), and now that she's back from visiting family in another state I'll be spending her last few days home with her. Today I have to pack my stuff and get ready to go. Then, as soon as I come home, I have to get ready again for Jon to come pick me up and whisk me away to spend New Year's together. I'll be spending the night at his house on New Year's...