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I'm running out of colors to use for these blogs.

Today I've been mostly deciding which camera I want to get. Oh right, so for my birthday my parents gave me a card that said "this card is good for one camera of your choice." I really didn't think they'd actually get me one when I asked, but they've proved me wrong. This morning my first choice was a Nikon D40..however I think that's changed to a Canon Rebel XS because my brother already has Canon lenses. ...

Upset, frustrated, f*cked-up - eh, he drives me nuts.
I can't believe how he's grown into being such a heartless bastard. He's my father, the only one I have and he can't even be there for me. I knew I shouldn't have went to him...money has always been an issue for him, apparentley I am not a very good investement.
God, I hate him.
Hate is a strong word, but right now, I think it is more than appropriate. If I could times it by 10, I would.
Breath in, breath out, inhale,...

T-I-R-E-D.








& hungry.

3 day suspension . Eh .
I'm not a nerd and don't particularly like school, but forcing me to stay home is not something really cool either. Especially when most normal people are IN school.
Apparently, I am a rude and ungrateful student. According to my french teacher that is.
I couldn't help but laugh my butt off when one of my friend, as she was trying to say "election" accidently said "erection" (in french but, eh, adds up to the same in english, hehe)...

What we had, did it mean anything to you? Did you really care about me? All the 'I love yous' and 'I miss yous' are just meaningless words or days gone by. Those whispers you said didn't mean anything. When you said 'let's get married' you didn't mean it, you probably never will. Don't feed me lies. I need the truth! I know about the girl and what you did. It hurts, it really does. Don't tell me that you hated being hurt by all those girls and then tell me you won't be the guy that hurts me. Guess...

Death, it lurks around the corner. Every day is just another day,but death looms in the shadows. It gets closer each and every second. The pain starts to get stronger. It gets to the point where you can't bear it anymore. Death starts to take over your body. The pain courses through your veins and your heart races faster. Death is staring you in the face and you can't fight back. This fight is being lost. Faster and faster you're falling into the darkness and you'll never return. Death has won.

Ahhhh!!! Right now....I'm pretty much a mix of and
I mean HOLY SHIT NUGGETS!! I'm so beyond excited I can't begin to tell you all how happy I am right now. I've been imagining her and her hubby starting a family since before they even really discussed it. I can't wait to be an auntie!!

I'm actually breaking my promise by telling all of you this...cause I told her I wouldn't tell a soul. But luckily for me I have you guys to tell and she'll never know!!
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I'm in a strange bubbly mood where I don't want to sit down and I have the urge to talk. (which for me is a rare thing since I'm never talkative) I wake up this morning and I was going to work out for a bit...but as soon as I did 5 crunches, I realized I was hungry. So I open my door to go downstairs and my cat is sitting by my door staring up at me with a slight craze in his eyes. I know that look. That's the look he gets when he's hyper and wants to play. I growl at him and immediately he takes...

I'm giving up. I'm giving up on holding my head up high, giving up on not saying goodbye. I'm giving up on all hope, I'm giving up on my new ways to cope. I'm giving up on caring what they think, I'm giving up when things start to stink. I'm giving up not because i don't care, I'm giving up because it's just not fair. I'm giving up on holding back my tears, I'm giving up on my deepest fears. I'm giving up on all my hard work. I'm giving up on the past, I should have known this wouldn't last. I'm...