I can't handle this anymore. Too many people think I'm fine. Too many people are counting on me. Too many people are hurting me. When will this end? Will it ever end?

I guess seeing the doctor on a "good" day wasn't necessarily the best idea. Then again, I can't really tell in advance which days will be good and which won't. Suppose it's safe to say that no, I don't feel safe at home on my own. I don't feel safe on my own at all. I just want to hurt and hide and break down completely. Except that I'm never in a position where I feel safe enough to do that.
I'll have 3 full days and a couple of hours on Friday home alone. The possibilities of...

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So, my weekend was pretty great. Got to stay the night with Shaq. He got his hair done, and he looks even more handsome. (: I didn't want to leave today. I wish I could of stayed longer. Oh well, at least I got to stay the night. I am so tired though. We stayed up til like 6, and I had to be up by 12. But I was up way before that, because his brother had some friends over and they were being extra loud and what not. And when I did get to sleep, I would get too hot, then I would get too cold. So...

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my father tries to control me. he can't deal with me being bisexual, studying Wicca, or just plain being MYSELF. sometimes i wish i would die. he wouldn't care. my mother does nothing. just gets drunk.

Ok so I came out to friends in October and mum and sis in Janurary about me being a Lesbian ...It went Ok. Friends tease me sometimes but they mean it in good nature.

Had a SH relapse in November and January, but after 2-3 weeks I managed to stop. Now that everything is out in the open and I have excepted everything including the fact that I get depressions and that I can be a gay christian etc I am hopeing that Janurary 27th was the last time I will ever SH.

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So I think I am going to "update" on here every night. It seems to...soothe?...me. So here I go. Today was another great day. School was great. I'm great. My Taco Bell was great.(; My mom is doing great...Okay, you get it. Anyways...of course, to ruin my great mood....My boyfriend's cousin started a rumor saying that Shaq (the boyfriend) had sex with my friend Ashlyn, on Tuesday night. Too bad I was with him ALL DAY AND NIGHT ON TUESDAY!, so there is no way in hell he did it. And plus,...

I am fast giving up on life right now. I don't see the point i can't take much more. It seems like everyone is out to get me. I'm on the edge and there all chanting me to jump. Well why don't i? I have stayed dtrong for me but i'm not worth this anymore. Everyone just keeps telling me what a selfish wast of space i am....so i calved selfish bitch into my arm. Just to remind me. I know i'm stupid and horrible and worthless. I don't need to be told i wish they would just get off my case for once ...

I stopped cutting. I brought the knife back downstairs and into the kitchen where it belongs. But now I feel like crying. It's a bitter-sweet victory...