I'm bored.

I saw my doctor less than an hour ago. I'm really glad I did because the pain is worse today. I can move my neck slightly to either side, but not far. If I try to push it, it feels like there's a physical block in the way, and it hurts a lot. Doctor said he could see how tense I was from trying to control my movements so it doesn't hurt as much. He's decided it's a muscle spasm and given me some Diazepam. I'm also waiting on an appointment from a physiotherapist.
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I want someone to love me. I want a relationship. I want to be in love with someone who loves me back.

I want to be able to do things again. I don't want to be ill, I hate it. I want to be able to walk properly.

I want to be happy.

But since none of that is possible I guess I want to be dead.

Don't leave me alone.

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The last few days my mood has been up and down like a rollercoaster. I've spent three days barely moving from my bed because I felt so ill after the busy days with my family. I've self harmed twice in that time. The one time I did get up I went to buy pills. I haven't taken any but I needed them as a security net. Just in case I get desperate. That sounds awful but that's where my mood is right now. I was binge watching Supernatural and feeling really awful and thinking about suicide, so I got drunk...

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I've marked two weeks on the Staff Calendar. The pain in my neck and back is spreading to my legs and feet when I spend too long sitting or lying down. Moving about seems to help. I spent today helping mum move her office, she kept telling me to watch my neck and don't lift anything too heavy or push myself too hard. It wasn't too bad, I took some paracetamol so I think that definitely helped to keep it at bay when I was carrying boxes and setting stuff up.
Got into the car to come home and...

I went on a steam train, and had chips for lunch, and Indian for tea, and hung out with my sister and took selfies with her and it was fun. And we went to the slate museum, and we watched Frozen Planet.

I'm really tired. I have a nine am lecture and I'm not sure I'm going to be able to make it. But I'm really glad I saw my sister because I hadn't seen her since christmas. She drew me a picture to put on my wall.

My mum is here. Instead of my usual Monday routine of getting up around 10, studying quietly, watching some cartoons and going to my lecture at 4, I have been up since 8, cleaning, and in half an hour (at 11) she's going to pick me up, we're doing lunch, she'll drop me at my lecture at 4, and then I think I'm going over for tea as well. That's too much. I'm already exhausted.

On the plus side my pikachu onesie arrived and it's the best texture ever. I was scared because my charmander...

We're swapping presents tonight. I hope my friend likes his.

I miss my ex.

I feel sad and lonely right now so I'm watching Lion King sequels.