I did 20, does that mean I can do 70? Should I?

"After serious self-harm or a suicide attempt, extra supports as outlined above will not be available for a 24 hour period."

It feels like I'm being punished for my own inability to ask for the help I need, for the fact that oftentimes once I get an idea, I cannot begin to shake the idea until I have acted upon it.

Nobody from my team has contacted me at all today. Admittedly the day is not over...

I can't do this much longer >_< Since people found out about my suicide plans things are getting so much worse.

I can't cope, I want to hurt, I want to die >_<

I promised, I delivered. Well, will deliver.



Item #: 4
Name: Gareth's Guinness
Set: 24/06/13
Timescale: >4 years
Description: I promised Gareth a Guinness. He shall get it!

Gareth (Oracle.) is Irish.
Therefore, Guinness is a major part of the culture. Because Irish people are amazing.

I said I'd buy Gareth a Guinness, and I...

It is 6:01 a.m., and I should be asleep. Why am I not asleep? I don't know. Actually, that's a total lie. I do know why I'm not asleep. I am not asleep because it is summer and I have little responsibilities right now, so I never have to go to sleep at a certain time, or wake up at a certain time. That may sound lovely, but it isn't really. I mean, to a certain extent, it is, yes. However, in this situation, on this particular day, it isn't. My mother is going to wake me up in at least six hours....

Perhaps not the most exciting item I'll ever have on my list, but something I'd like to work towards nevertheless.

GCSEs are the UK's secondary exam system - it stands for General Certificate of Secondary Education.



Item #: 3
Name: GCSE Grades
Set: 23/06/13
Timescale: 2 years
Description: GCSEs are really important. As in, really important....

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There are two scheduled discussions on the topic of building positive relationships in the Chat Room for users to seek advice and share thoughts and ideas! The first discussion will be held at 8pm UK time (BST) and the second will be held at 8pm Central US time (CDT). All you have to do to take part is...

There are blogs on this website? What? How come I didn't notice this before? Okay. All the other times I've tried to write a blog that wasn't a 'tumblr' blog, I have failed. We can attempt this one, but it will probably just be an embarrassing failure.

So... let's see what happened today. I woke up and had to go to the dentist. The dentist cleaned my teeth and asked "Have any of your teeth been bothering you?" and I lied and said "No." So then they announced I...

I need someone so much, all my friends ignore me, no one cares that I want to die right now.

Maybe it's just for the best, maybe it's my time

Today, the 19th June, my planned suicide date. I've had this planned for so long but now people know about it and now I'm not carrying through with the plan today I feel really crappy.
I feel like I shouldn't be here now, that I should be feeling better, like I should be going through with it all :/