Had such a shitty few days, after people finding out about my suicide plans I've been refered to psychiatric wellbeing team.
I feel so empty and alone and like no one cares :/ I can't cope any longer.

I really need people to talk to

Because I should take up potential income when there are other people who probably actually need it more than I do!
(because I'm a horrible person. Deal with it...)



Like every piss-poor person in the country doesn't want one.

Item #: 2
Name: Get a Job!
Set: 15/06/13
Timescale: Short-Term Goals (up...

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My counselor basically wants me to think more in the present rather than in the future and she gave me an exercise to do where I write down five things I can see, four things I can hear, three things I can touch, two things you can smell, and one thing I can taste. You may see more of these.

And, well, I'm triggered right now so I need the reminder.

I can see

1. My keyboard. Some of the keys are wearing of. The L key is almost completely worn off, the H, D, M, N, and

...

I wouldn't know how to describe this day. Right now, all I know is that I'm sitting here, texting my friends, telling them everything is peachy when they ask, when in reality, I'm crying helplessly.

Today should have been good. It was supposed to be a lot of fun. So why am I so miserable, and why have I been all day?

This morning, my dad took me to a tour of the Phillies stadium. It was awesome - we got to see so many things you don't normally see at a typical game....

Hooray for my first proper Bucket List item!

And (surprise, surprise), I reckon it's going to be one of the least achievable.

Item #: 1
Name: Visit the Maldives
Set: 09/06/13
Timescale: Long-Term Goals / Lifetime Ambitions (3 years - Death)
Description: Take a holiday to a Maldivian Island.

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well.. it's been a while :P I hope you havent been missing me too much You probably haven't, really, but OH WELL. If i am destant to enjoy this blog in solitude, in solitude this blog will be enjoyed!

Okay, firstly, I come from Australia, the land of Kangaroos, Vegemite and AFL, the latter of which I am to talk about. Before I get started, this website may be helpful to those yet to discover 'footy' http://www.girl.com.au/afl.htm
Well, now that the fundamentals are out of...

Good-Bye is the one place i hate to go
some times it drags the darkness out
out of my heart and in to my mind

Hello is a word that makes me birght
i dont fell so alone when its said
but it can be a sad day either way

so good bye is the way to go
i cry tonight cause you make me say good bye
i am sorry but i will never say good bye


this poem was written because my older brother the only one that cared about...