TeenHelp - Entries for February 2012

Really crap day trig

Posted February 23rd 2012 at 04:38 PM by Riddikulus

I had such a horrible day!
In the sixth form meeting we had to talk about safe driving and had to watch a video about a teenage girl that has a car crash, killing her two best friends and two people in the other car who were the parents of two young children. It was really graphic and you saw the whole crash but that wasn't even the bit that hit me the most, it was all the family reactions and the baby crying for her mom who was dead in the front.
I know that it does make us think...

Riddikulus

The magic word... expelliarmus

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Hate being ill :/

Posted February 22nd 2012 at 06:19 AM by Riddikulus

Woke up about four times in the night, once with a really bad stomach ache and the rest because my ears and head were really hurting.
When I got up this morning my head was hurting so badly i wanted to cry and i stood up and fell over.
The medication just makes me feel weird and sick and sleepy.
I want this all to go away.
I really need a hug :/

Riddikulus

The magic word... expelliarmus

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Someone.. help? :/

Posted February 21st 2012 at 05:53 PM by Riddikulus

Went to the doctors yesterday, I've been given medication and I have to go and see a specialist about my blood pressure as it's high. I've got to go back tommorrow and in a week and I've still got to go the the Ear, throat and nose doctor on the 5th. :/ I hate this, I want it all to go away and nothing seem to be helping, I've already had loads of tests and seen several doctors and they still don't know what is wrong.

Riddikulus

The magic word... expelliarmus

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Leaving

Posted February 19th 2012 at 08:36 PM by Riddikulus

I need some time out to think, I need to decide whether being here is helping me or not atm with family and my future.
I love you all so much and you are amazing people, but right now I feel like i'm just lying to my family as I can't tell them about TH. I want them to be able to trust me and I feel like they can't when i'm lying and they know i am.

People who have me on fb may have noticed I've deactivated my account as it just distracts me from work and i need to concentrate...

Riddikulus

The magic word... expelliarmus

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Want it to stop..

Posted February 19th 2012 at 03:55 PM by Riddikulus

I'm just aching so much, I have a constant headache which will suddenly get so bad that i just want to cry and do nothing. My ears are hurting so badly, I can't lie down without going dizzy and I just can't concentrate on anything.
I've had this for months and I'm fed up, I've got to wait until march to see the ENT doctor. I really want this sorted.

Also I've had an awful day, everythings just getting to me, I don't see the point in anything anymore, I'm just giving up.

Riddikulus

The magic word... expelliarmus

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Sick of seeing me around...

Posted February 13th 2012 at 04:55 PM by Riddikulus

I don't mean to get everything wrong, i try to make you proud, I try not to be so much of a failure.

Today I'd been up less than an hour and my mom told me she was sick of seeing my face and that i should go out.
I still don't know what i did wrong, I'd hardly spoken to my family, i've learnt not to.
I try to please them, i try to make them proud, i want them care about me and love me. I hate the way they treat me and i know the majority of it's my fault but i don't know...

Riddikulus

The magic word... expelliarmus

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Really need a hug

Posted February 10th 2012 at 08:25 PM by Riddikulus

I can't believe my grandad is doing it again, It's tearing the family apart. I hate watching my parents so upset and the fact that he doesn't give a crap.
I can't handle it, I'm just finding myself pushing everyone away, even the person i love the most. But yet i really need someone to talk to right now, i feel so alone >_< I really need a hug.

Riddikulus

The magic word... expelliarmus

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Only friends... trig

Posted February 9th 2012 at 08:16 PM by Riddikulus

Charli, you're such a fucking idiot.. just get out of people lives, they don't care, they don't want to know....

Pills and blades...my only friends atm it seems >_<

Riddikulus

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The only way I can do this... trig

Posted February 8th 2012 at 08:47 PM by Riddikulus

Keep staring at my blades and pills, i'm hurting so badly...It's the only thing that will help atm..

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RIP

Posted February 4th 2012 at 10:07 PM by Riddikulus

I can't believe you're gone, I'll miss you so much, we all will.
I'll always remember the first time we talked and how you made me laugh and the way you always knew what to say.
I hope you're at peace now and that you are happy.
RIP, I love you <3

Riddikulus

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