I feel so alone, so distant from everything. I'm finding it so hard to hold on, i'm slipping back into the way i was before, feeling like my only escape is Self Harm and Pills.
Friend invited me to a party today but i'm too scared to go, I know people there don't and won't like me, I'm stupid and i suppose theres no reason for them too.

Alone, scared, need help

Panicking, can't breathe properly and i'm shaking.
I feel like something really bad is going to happen but i don't know what. I'm so scared. >_<

Help help help help... Help me

Please, I can't fight any longer :/

I've been so happy for the last few days, idon't know why i'mstruggljng again.
I feel like I'm going to fall apart but I know I have to be strong.

I don't think I can do this
I need you but I'm scared to ask...

She beautiful and amazing and makes me laugh xD

This is the first time i've been this happy in ages

For once i've woken up happy today, ready to face the day. Whether having triple maths and double history will change that i don't know, but oh well xD

That one person that makes everything so much better with just a few words.

Can't stop smiling xD

Not looking forward to school, I feel so ill I knew I shouldn't have taken those pills, but I needed it >_<
Got a long day and I'm going to be alone for all of it, no one cares, people don't notice, I don't know why I'm still trying to do this.

I miss you so much, I still can't stop thinking about you and what if I hadn't told everyone to block you, what if I hadn't left you alone. I should have been there for you like you always were for me, I'm so sorry.
Spent the last two nights just crying, I don't think I can do this anymore. I'm sorry

I wish they knew how much I cared, how I would do anything to be with them right now and hugging them.
I wish I wasn't such an idiot and that my family would listen when i try to ask for advice rather than judging me and tell me i'm being a drama queen.

I wish I could do something about me about everything but i'm too scared, worthless, don't want to waste peoples time I guess.