First of all, an update. My parents still don't know about the as Physics and my teachers are now claiming no responsibility for it telling me that it was never on them. That had been a big stressor on me recently and with this happening just before Christmas sent me completely into a meltdown.

Now onto what's going on now. Christmas has been a roller coaster. Christmas time for me has never been great which for the past 6 years has sent me to relapse. This terrified me after all...

So although life has not been easy since I last talked but I kept on walking and am still here.

My teachers have been making my life pretty hard recently and it was not till I broke down to my counsellor and she sent an email out that anything changed. My teachers still have not told my parents about the change to my physics course and with parents evening next week, we will see how that goes. But tomorrow I send off my application to university and so at least I have started to look...

So I have not been on here for a while, a combination of feeling like crap and back to school stress. But since back to school madness has stopped now I felt like I should come back.

Coming back to school this year has brought nothing but stress for a number of reasons. 1. This is my last year in formal education, I apply o go to university this year. 2. At the end of the last school year I had mocks and failed both maths and physics so I have had to change corses, now because of...

For 6 years I have been battling self-harm, relapsing every couple of months. It was never something I thought I would turn to but is what I ended up using. In the past year, I have been working on myself more but the self-harming habit was one I could not get rid of. At a Christian camp called Soul Survivor this year I was praying about it and felt that God was telling me to get rid of my tools and that I could cope without them. I did not believe him so ignored him, but he would not leave it and...

So I have just started a new job and am currently half way through it. It is event catering and this job is a 4 day event. Being new not knowing anyone is definetly not helping. Almost everyone here smokes and drinks.and it seems like that is the only way to socialise I don't drink or smoke so feel left out. I am also not as quick today while serving after having my confidence knock yesterday and I have gotten pretty good at knowing when people are talking about me behind my back and seeing my...

So life is still winning at the moment. I am on holiday with my family at the moment with hardly any internet and no signal miles away from home and am hating every moment of it. On top of that things are still awkward between me any my dad. My ex-boyfriend and 'best' friend has started dating a girl who he used to go out with (this girl almost led him to comit suicide and if it was not for me and another friend he probably would not be here today) and there is nothing I can do about it because...

So I have not been here in a while and should probably explain why.

Life was going great, I was coming to the end of a long half term at school and for the first time in forever, I was excited about the upcoming holiday. I had a stable relationship with my boyfriend and was happy.

Then holiday came, 2nd day in I had a massive argument with my dad and walk out for the first time. The rest of the holiday I spent in my room not talking to anyone about what had happened,...

It is like just as I get my life sorted and I start to feel like myself again my idiot of a father does something to sed me tumbling back to my lowest.

Last night on my way home from a great evening at my Christian youth club when I turn the heater down in the car, at this point my dad erupted into anger getting in my face about it. At this point, I got out of the car as it was still moving and walked the rest of the way home. I went straight to my room and had a panic attack I then...

I don't know if this is allowed so if am breaking any guidelines then please just remove the post.

I had the amazing opportunity to speak in a video about mental health with some local footballers. I hope that you would spend three minutes just to watch it and see the message that they are trying to spread, thank you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8UB...ature=youtu.be

Hi,

I was wondering if anyone else was doing their GCSE's (UK) this year and if they are how they are feeling about them. I can say that I m not looking forward to these next 6 weeks, and I can not wait for them to be over.