Oh my GOD. I can't handle being the one person that my parents do not trust. Literally I've been raped and abused and bullied and all I have done is try to make myself happy in every way possible and I get looked down upon. Who can I even turn to now? I should just end it I guess. I'm tired of not getting any personal space or getting in pathetic fights with every person. I just want to curl up and cry. Like one of my favorite songs say; "Maybe I should cut myself or curl up and die."...

Everything is PISSING ME OFF! I feel like I'm a fucking bother and that I should just disappear. I mean, whatever. I don't know how to feel today. I can't cut because I don't want to be sent to Rivercrest again, so all I have is me just crying my fucking eyes out for no reason.
I'm tired, I'm in pain, and for the first time in like ever I'm pissed that my boyfriend won't text me back right away. I know I shouldn't be mad because he is with family and has his own life, but damnit I just want...

I swear, I have absolutely no control in my life. I know that some things I do aren't right or whatever, but I just want the freedom of being who I want to be or not being seen as some fragile doll who can't figure out right from wrong. I'm not oblivious, nor am I 6 years old anymore.
I don't want to make a thread about how I feel simply because I feel I post to much to begin with. I feel like my problems have to be considered "big" to be seen as a problem to others. My mom thinks...

So an update on my life, I am taken by the love of my life, and I wear he makes me feel like no other. He is making a playlist for us and he walks to the high school to see me EVERY DAY! I swear, sometimes love can be found in the most mysterious ways.

Next is my brother broke his braces during football, but he is so talented and although he is skinny, he sure does know how to tackle.

And now my sister... I've been trying to contact her for so long and she has yet to...