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First Entry~
Posted April 5th 2018 at 04:14 PM by Unidentified~Unicorn
Oof.
Um... So yeah, first blog entry. I don't really know what to put.
Well, a few of the volunteers said that blogging could be a way for me to express how I feel since I am limited on where to write/post.
Today I feel okay. I saw him today and gave him a note, which made me happy. He held my hand tightly and that gave me butterflies. I had to leave to get to class, though. I self-harmed again.
I wish I didn't, but I did. Last night and this morning. I hope I get better.
I'm constantly scared, though. Of everything.
My family, friends, being alone, being with people, the dark, etc. I feel like I'm always being watched. The voices told me earlier that I needed to quit eating, that I was getting fatter. Is that true? Probably. I've been eating less and less,
and when I get to a bathroom, I start to make myself throw up. It is better when I'm in the shower.
I have to get to class now.
Um... So yeah, first blog entry. I don't really know what to put.
Well, a few of the volunteers said that blogging could be a way for me to express how I feel since I am limited on where to write/post.
Today I feel okay. I saw him today and gave him a note, which made me happy. He held my hand tightly and that gave me butterflies. I had to leave to get to class, though. I self-harmed again.
I wish I didn't, but I did. Last night and this morning. I hope I get better.
I'm constantly scared, though. Of everything.
My family, friends, being alone, being with people, the dark, etc. I feel like I'm always being watched. The voices told me earlier that I needed to quit eating, that I was getting fatter. Is that true? Probably. I've been eating less and less,
and when I get to a bathroom, I start to make myself throw up. It is better when I'm in the shower.
I have to get to class now.
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