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Am I broken?
Posted November 8th 2018 at 08:27 PM by Unidentified~Unicorn
I swear, I have absolutely no control in my life. I know that some things I do aren't right or whatever, but I just want the freedom of being who I want to be or not being seen as some fragile doll who can't figure out right from wrong. I'm not oblivious, nor am I 6 years old anymore.
I don't want to make a thread about how I feel simply because I feel I post to much to begin with. I feel like my problems have to be considered "big" to be seen as a problem to others. My mom thinks I'm broke, and wants to fix and tidy me up to be this absolutely perfect daughter who is independent and strong. Know what? I'm not strong. I have so many things wrong with me, and frankly there is only one person keeping me sane and it is my boyfriend. If I didn't have him... I don't know where I'd be. I just want someone to understand. I don't want to feel alone. I'm terrified of so many things and he is the only one whom I'm scared of losing. Someone please tell me why I am broke.
I don't want to make a thread about how I feel simply because I feel I post to much to begin with. I feel like my problems have to be considered "big" to be seen as a problem to others. My mom thinks I'm broke, and wants to fix and tidy me up to be this absolutely perfect daughter who is independent and strong. Know what? I'm not strong. I have so many things wrong with me, and frankly there is only one person keeping me sane and it is my boyfriend. If I didn't have him... I don't know where I'd be. I just want someone to understand. I don't want to feel alone. I'm terrified of so many things and he is the only one whom I'm scared of losing. Someone please tell me why I am broke.
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I think you should post as much as you need. Don't worry about posting too much as there are a lot of people here who'd want to help.
You say you aren't strong but you are. I think that anyone who deals with depression etc has to be strong. However, I think the depression and other issues have the tendency to make us feel weak.
I don't think you are broken either. I feel broken a lot too but I try and remind myself that the brokenness that I feel isn't a true thing. I think we all have things in life that make us feel broken, mine was abuse I've had to deal with, while I'm not sure what has led to you feeling broken I think those things have probably led to you having a strength that you might not be able to see right now.
Please hang in there, post as much as you need and feel free to message me if you need anything.
Posted November 9th 2018 at 12:03 AM by .:Bibliophile:.
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Don't worry about "posting too much" because we [I]want[/I] to help those who reach out for support and advice, no matter how many threads they make. So feel free to post and make as many threads as you need to until you are satisfied with the support and advice you receive on here. :)
I don't think you are weak or broken. I think a lot of us who struggle with depression and negative thinking feel this way. I believe this actually makes us stronger and more human, we have our flaws that make each and every one of us an unique individual. Imagine if we all were perfect, no mental health conditions, no disabilities of any sort, or physical deformities? The world would be so boring!!
If you ever need to reach out to talk or just want to vent, I am here. :hug:Posted November 10th 2018 at 05:25 PM by
