Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Tigereyes]

Why bother trying anymore?

[Kate*]

There's always got to be somebody to shoot me down. Thank God for my therapist and this is why I don't like to tell these people shit.

[nothereanymore]

I didn't get into college. Catch me at a tall bridge with no water.

[MWF]

I applied for a promotion and now Im worried Ill get fired. Well, maybe I shouldnt have been stealing food...

[Chai.]

Things would have been easier if you'd never come into my life. Now my life is full of confused feelings and I have no idea what to make of it.

[Calaer]

I bought Ava a swing set, and I didn't realize it was going to be so frustrating to put together. So yesterday, I tried, and didn't even get it half finished after 8 hours. Seriously, 8 hours, and I got a sun burn, and it's blistered.

[DanTheMan :P]

I'm so fucking sick of my own brain being my worst enemy, I hope after however many years I can finally get some validation

[Everglow.]

I'm not so petty that I'm angry you got a job I want. I'm angry because you got a job supporting vulnerable people when you can barely support yourself. I'm angry that yet again, HE knew first and he came first in your mind. I'm angry that you havent seen us all week but it doesn't matter to you. I'm angry that you're doing a job which involved being empathetic and caring, neither of which describe you in the slightest. And that you have no eperience but things get handed to you on a silver platter like you deserve them but you do nothing to deserve them at all. It isn't fair. You don't deserve this job when I work so hard and can't find one.

I don't want to be alive. It's never ending.

[Kate*]

I hate Facebook right now. It just reminded me that grad school admission came 5 years ago today. Now, I'm weeks away from voc rehab for a fighting chance at a decent job after disability met dream and turned my life into a nightmare. Sometimes, it's so shocking, I still can't believe it all happened.

[Everglow.]

12 hours of uni work today. Lecture then meeting tomorrow, then an evening of proof reading and data analysis. Constant headache, so shattered, and to top it all off I have to work when I really don't have the time.

[.Brittany.]

Stupid periods..

[Kintsukuroi.]

So much to do and so little time. This quiz is going to be a nightmare.

[roseegirl]

Im really scared about these doctor appointments

[Calaer]

I hate all the things we have to get done before the Lady's B-day. I know we still have a few weeks, but I'm still getting overwhelmed by all the things to check off the list.

[Kate*]

I think this will be a complete waste of time... trying to remember the last time I was wrong about something like this.

So, this is what lack of motivation feels like. Medication it is.

This is mild, really?! I can't do this.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I don't deserve to be alive. No one cares. No one would care or even notice if I disappeared or died.

I will never know his name.

[nothereanymore]

I don't belong anywhere and I want to die

[Everglow.]

Let's see if I can sleep tonight or if it'll be another night where I dose off for twenty minutes and wake up structuring a mythical essay I haven't been set.

[Calaer]

I love you, but I wish you would realize that not everything revolves around her. Other people can have problems and hardships, and I don't see anyone coming to anyone elses' rescue like you do to her. It's time to cut ties and allow her to take care of her problems on her own.

I just want to waste away.

[nothereanymore]

I want to go home and hurt and kill myself

[nothereanymore]

My heart hurts. I feel like I've lost a friend.

[Kate*]

Please tell me I can medicate all 4 of these chronic conditions safely and without being miserable. I really don't think it's possible.

Changed doctors again! I might actually be able to get in to see this one. Since I need referrals every 5 minutes, UGH Hopefully they'll let her refer me instead since it'll be easier and it makes a lot more sense.

Good thing I'm not desperate for meds, over 3 months for a psychiatrist, really?! Probably should've gone with an earlier one if they had it, but oh well.

You do realize that your comment proves one of my points, right? I'm not defending myself to these people again, made that mistake the first time, but proving the person's point isn't technically an argument.

[Everglow.]

I know you mean well by trying to help me but I have no time to worry about how much I'm writing at the moment. I can write the whole thing and then go back and edit but theres NO point worrying about writing too many themes right now. I'm in panic mode. Fuck.

All I wanted was a nice, quiet evening watching Game of Thrones but noooo, y'all gotta come in and plop yourselves down like you were invited and just start chattering on about your day. Great, now apparently we're all hanging out. Just great.

[roseegirl]

I want you... but you are the most hot and cold person in the world and its driving me insane

[nothereanymore]

Get me out of my head I can't take it

[Chai.]

My head hurts! I need a break

[MWF]

I think I might be ADD. Lets see if some weed helps.
Edit: Looks promising so far.

[fallenskies]

Why do u ALWAYS have to change everything in your favor? You don't even ask for our opinions before doing so, and when we do something without asking you, you go insane. I have like a tenth of my data left and you go change the wifi password because your stupid ass wanted to, the moment I came home, I went about doing my stuff on my phone and 2 seconds later I have no more data. Great. Okay then. Don't fucking complain if you can't text me or call me. I'll just say I don't have anymore data because your stupid fucking ass doesn't fucking care about any fucking thing

[fallenskies]

And you. STOP fucking pressurizing me to do every fucking thing. It's not like I want to play the piano, you FORCED me to. Why don't you do pressurize him instead? Why only pressurize me? Is it because I'm the oldest? Because you should give up. I'm sick and fucking tired of all your bullshit. And also, I deserve my privacy in this household. Just because you own the house doesn't mean you can barge in whenever you want, or tell me to leave my door open. Do you even know what privacy means? It means giving me, your daughter, a private space to do whatever the fuck I want and not care about you. Sometimes I wonder if I was adopted. I'm probably not, but I wish I was. My adoptive parents would certainly be WAY better at looking after me. You've done a shit job.

[Calaer]

I hate that I have this thing looming over my head. I'd rather it be over with already, and I have on idea why it's taking so long.

[Clarent]

Please, not again... I was doing so well...

I wish you cared. I wish this would get better. I wish I could just disappear.

Why is recovery so fucking hard?

Relapsing again...I'm such a failure.

[Everglow.]

Cried before sleep last night. So fucking tired. Can't think straight.

[MWF]

Will I ever NOT suck at talking to girls?

[Chai.]

This is so damn annoying. I am not answerable to you.