Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

Got a normal amount of sleep last night (7 hours) and I am a freaking zombie.

I really want to die!!

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

Nobody wants to be friends with such a fat, ugly, and disgusting person like me.....

[Chuuya]

I'm so sick of my mother. I just want to go back to school. Can I just fast forward a week please. But that won't do much cause she'll just bother me with freaking "Are you depressed?" Texts while i'm at school that just put me in a bad mood.

I also really don't want to go back to work tomorrow. It'll just suck because none of the nice people are there on Monday just my bosses who like me but they're ughhhh frustratinggggg.....

I feel like this year is going to be terrible. Have been dreading the new year.

[Kate*]

And the Medicaid saga continues... Medicaid says we're covered, the company we're insured through says we're not (and no new cards) Are we going to go through this every fucking year now?! At least I have enough time and medication to fix it.

Worst part of hypersensitive hearing: overhearing your mom tell your aunt what she really thinks about you. Only thing worse is not knowing if she's talking about you or grandma. Apparently, we drive her equally crazy. Thanks Mom, I can HEAR you.

She went out of her way to bring you a sandwich that you like (not the one we like) only to have you tell her that you "don't eat those" but you can eat ALL of OUR FUCKING COOKIES. You have no right to complain that you have no fucking food.

I thought you wanted me to handle it, you only asked my permission to let her do it for me. It's fine, but you could've just let me do it. This whole thing is stupid!

Perfect, I finally get a therapist and I think I inadvertently cured myself. At least I can use her to deal with you.

I'll give you a reasonable amount of time to deal with it and then I'll ask. I don't need you to accept it, but I need you to make your decision and hopefully I didn't forget something.

I'm really struggling and no one cares.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

No one cares about me.....

[MWF]

Aaron Rodgers is the biggest pussy-bitch in the NFL.
Also, anybody who watched the Lions play the Packers just watched the commentators suck his dick for four hours.

[MWF]

I don't know who I hate more. The Packers, the NFL commentators, or the referees. Jesus H. Christ, how alarming is it that I would actually fight any one of these people right now?
I need to give up sports...
Edit: Got my 20 minutes, all calm now.

[nothereanymore]

I'm tired of uppity people. No one is better than anyone.

Every other post on Facebook and Tumblr is like "if you do this you're racist and sexist and ableist and homophobic and a piece of shit and you're wrong and wrong and wrong and bad and wrong" and I wish this stuff didn't bother me but it does because everywhere I go I see people thinking I have to be apologetic for being white and cisgender and I'm so tired of people demonizing and condemning other people. Fucking stop it. Don't you ever get sick of hating people? Don't you ever get sick of riding that damn high horse? Political correctness is the number one reason I am intimidated and ashamed of the world and why I don't want to live in it. I'm reacting to a TON of things I've seen, not just one. There is no escape. This poison is fucking everywhere.

[Everglow.]

I want to move out. This house is draining me of everything.

[Everglow.]

I can feel myself getting sicker again. I'm tired of this.

[Tigereyes]

So far from okay. I can't do this alone but I am alone. I just want relief.

I don't know if I am going to go in to volunteer. I went all month last month though which is really good. Wanted to try and go all month this month too.

[Everglow.]

If I'm shouting at you because I'm trying to concentrate on an essay and you're talking so much I can't even hear myself think isn't it a hint that you should just shut up? Please. Your work doesn't involve essays so it's fine if you want to listen to music or watch tv or talk but have a bit of respect. I'm sick of this.

[nothereanymore]

Sick again. Yay.

Well, Idk if I get to take that medication now. Apparently it and one of my other medications aren't supposed to be taken together. I have no idea why my doctors computer didn't mention that.

[nothereanymore]

I don't want to go the doctor's again

[Jordioa18]

Fucking Taima streams!

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

What's the point in trying anymore?

[nothereanymore]

I'm being tested today. And of course I'm already failing. I don't want to get out of bed or talk to anyone today. Anyone.

[Chuuya]

I am so tired of people not doing their freaking jobs. You're paid to be here. Get it done it's not hard.

I don't want to do this anymore.

[nothereanymore]

Why am I awake. Oh my god.
I haven't been able to eat since I got sick and I'm so tired BUT I WAKE UP AT THREE IN THE MORNING AND IM STILL UP TWO HOURS LATER. I want to eat. I want to be healthy. Tired of being sick. Tired of telling people I am and having them not be surprised.

[Chuuya]

if we would have left at 7 like we usually do we would have gotten their fine. But no you had to wait until 9 and then tell me that we're not going into work at all. Now I have no way to get in - I don't have the money for this and now I have to go in on Saturday even though I was planning on using Saturday to get all my stuff for school.

Thanks. You're such a terrible person.

[Clarent]

Yes, I know I'm losing weight, but it's not because I'm sick. My lifestyle has changed and I eat way better than I used to, so it's only natural.

I feel better and more confident, if only slightly. Don't mess it up.

I didn't sleep that well and have so much to do today.

[nothereanymore]

"Oh hey mom guess what I put in an application to go to college"
"Cool"

...what the fuck is wrong with you? Does it really not mean that much to you?

[nothereanymore]

Damned if I didn't do some damage to my liver and/or intestines by taking a near fatal overdose. Constant problems since then. Fuck me, man.

Don't think I am gonna end up sleeping all that well. Fell asleep due to being so tired and now I don't feel too tired.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

Should just give up right now.....

[Kate*]

We STILL can't fucking BELIEVE you did that! You "can't" eat the shit people go out of their way to bring you, but you can eat OUR fucking COOKIES that AREN'T even yours!!!@!!@!! You're such an entitled, spoiled baby! I seriously can't deal with you anymore. And again, milking the shit out of your limitations, you figure out how to eat what you know you shouldn't have, but REFUSE to eat what you know you should be. I fucking QUIT!

It's coming back, thank God I didn't have to cancel therapy, still 6 days is a long time considering.

If this was processed as a leave of absence, which it shouldn't have been, then I'm probably okay. If it was processed as a non-academic dismissal, I have to report it if I apply somewhere else for pretty much anything (not that it'll ever be possible). It would make you look worse than it would make me look, so I'd think you'd avoid that at all costs, but if it is, I have a disability and I have to report and explain this like I'm a fucking criminal! You "care" and didn't ruin my life my ass!

[nothereanymore]

I haven't been able to eat and I'm gonna fall if I stand up. Can't see my doctor till Monday but if this keeps up I'm gonna end up in the emergency room.

[Everglow.]

Feeling just a little by on edge today after that dream last night. Definitely a dream, I've checked, but now I feel a bit anxious and irritable.
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If you insist on having your boyfriend near enough move in could you at least be quiet? Stop banging things and go to your room so I can do some work. Inconsiderate.

[nothereanymore]

Fever's coming back and stomach issues are getting worse again. I could barely drink my water and I took two hours drinking the Ensure so I wouldn't throw up. Fuck.

My head hurts and medication isn't working!

[nothereanymore]

C. difficile colitis. Killll meeeeee

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I could disappear and not a single person would care. I'm a stupid, disgusting, fat, ugly, dumb, worthless, and useless excuse for a human being.

[Everglow.]

My back hurts so much.