Well.... First off HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY

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Yeah. I cut today.
I've been off it for two months.
But I cut today.

And it felt good.

No, it felt sick

So what if I was on the edge the whole day??

So what if my girlfriend said she didn't care at the moment to go ahead....

I should've been stronger.

I'm weak.

I gave in to something as stupid as harming myself...

I...

I might not have known this boy but he was really close to a my mom's friend's daughter who is almost like a sister to me.

On Canada day here, at around 11 PM, a 13 year old boy was killed in a car collison caused by a drunk driver. The little honda civic was side-struck on the passanger side by a Dodge truck and killed the boy instantly. His 18 year old brother/friend (my mom wasn't clear on it) was flown to Calgary hospital with serious life threatening and is now stable...
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As the title suggests I'm headed back home tomorrow.
I don't want to go, I know that no one ever wants to go home from a holiday but I love it here so much. It's like a second home, we've been coming here for so long. It's so beautiful and natural. I can't stress how much I love it.
I don't know if it's the idea of going home and facing everything again that's doing this but I've been so ridiculously suicidal the past few days and it's really starting to bother me. Whereas before...

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Dear pix,

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Okay, so I guess things are getting better. I wouldn't really be able to tell you too well. It's way to difficult to explain what's been going on these past few days. I'm not even sure. Hell, last night I decided to take 3 different types of meds just so I could sleep. How terrible is that? I just got so sick of not being able to sleep. So I took meds. Not to mention that I'm coming down with a cold, and I have multiple reasons to believe I'm having baby. Yes, at the age of 16. I am no better...

I be happiness today xD

Despite being horribly triggered by literally nothing for the past 4 or 5 days, I'm finding it almost not too hard to stay distracted

A very special person I've been friends with for a long time finally was totally honest with me. We never acted like friends anyway <3
That same friend left for a short holiday earlier, not without lecturing me on the dangers of:
- Not looking where I'm going whilst cycling with...

Feel like going on rant, learnt today that people have been talking about me behind my back. Not too bothered about that since I knew it was happening. Just annoyed really, annoyed with life, annoyed with summer, annoyed with lack of rain, annoyed with people.

Still don't feel like cutting, I suppose it's a good thing, although hopefully the 11 bottles of wkd will remain at 11 instead of dipping down before the night is up. Should be ok since I got paid but anyway.

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