So, this week is Christmas. I have all my presents bought, very thing is wrap and under the tree. It should be a very happy time. But as I look around my HOME all i want to do is cry. everything is packed up except for what we really need. Everything is in boxes. We are being evicted. We missed June and Julys rent payment because my soon-to-be mother-in-law was unemployed during the summer. So now....at CHRISTMAS the landlord is evicting us.

My uncle is sick. Months ago he was drinking...

I remember it clearly. I wish I'd never have gone to my psychology teacher now. She was right. I don't deserve to go to uni. Why should she predict me grades I can't possibly achieve? I was 5 marks off a B I should have just accepted that was It she basically told me I wasn't good enough. The worst part is I knew she was right. I didn't tell her my reason. I was crying my eyes out afterwards. My friend tried...

Why am I doing this? I've barely eaten. I feel dizzy. Why can't I stop exercising?

Might get an appointment to see a dietician. That's what my counselor said. I'm scared. I have more weight to lose. I'm not thin enough for them to tell me what to eat.

I wrote this a couple weeks ago.

She always tries to be her best,
But they scrutinize her every move,
She tries to be nice,
They say she's a bully,
She tries to get good grades,
They're never good enough,
She tries to be good at things,
They say she messes it up,
And by "they" its always just herself,
Thinking she's never good enough

I hope everyone likes it.