Today was a tough day. I really don't want to be the blogger who just blogs about what happened each and every day of their life, but today I just needed to vent.

Well, I guess my day started to head south during my first class of the day. My friend, L, I'll call her was talking to me. Complaining, I should say, about her life. She said that she wants a new car, but her dad won't buy her one. Sounds harmless, huh. Her car is only 3 years old......and it's a Camero!!! Really?! My car...

I'm staying away from advice here right now. I'll still blog, I guess.

It's just so triggering. It makes me want to cut and starve and kill myself.

But I like to help people, so I come on anyway.

I've been happier lately, but it's weird. Thinspo is keeping me happy. Eating barely anything is keeping me happy. I'm desperately trying to lose weight so I'm happier.

But what if I fail? What if I gain?

First session with Pete...